—cancer sun— —leo moon— —libra rising—

The come-down from doing a good deed is crazy. Like I think I could rescue a baby from a burning building and 30 minutes later I’d be like, “Idk was it cringe of me to run into that building like that? The baby didn’t even seem that happy to get rescued. Honestly maybe the baby started the house fire and I interrupted an important life lesson.”

being anti ai is making me feel like in going insane. "you asked for thoughts about your characters backstory and i put it into chat gpt for ideas". studies have proven its making people dumber. "i asked ai to generate this meal plan". its causing water shortages where its data centers are built. "ill generate some pictures for the dnd campaign". its spreading misinformation. "meta, generate an image of this guy doing something stupid". its trained off stolen images, writing, video, audio. "i was talking with my snapchat ai-" theres no way to verify what its doing with the information it collects. "youtube is impletmenting ai based age verification". my work has an entire graphics media department and has still put ai generated motivational posters up everywhere. ai playlists. ai facial verification. google ai microsoft ai meta ai snapchat ai. everyone treats it as a novelty. every treats it as a mandatory part of life. am i the only one who sees it? am i paranoid? am i going insane? jesus fucking christ. if i have to hear one more "well at least-" "but it does-" "but you can-" im about to lose it. i shouldnt have to jump through hoops to avoid the evil machine. have you no principles? no goddamn spine? am i the weird one here?

on a wednesday, in a cafe on a sports podcast, i watched it begin again

up at 3am googling how do i break out of a repetitive cycle that both comforts and harms me

it literally all starts with forgiving yourself there’s no way around it

don't play with my heart. it's already very damaged. just tell me what you want from me and that's it

remember when millennials said we weren't going to be as weird and stupid about gen z as boomers were about us? lol that didn't last long huh

I just saw someone suggest that no one under 18 should have access to the internet because they're all falling for online radicalisation, and I don't know how to explain to you that "this whole group of people should be banned from part of society because they're fundamentally incapable of thinking for themselves" is actually one of the most fascist things you can think

you have to outlive donald trump

imagine how funny the internet will be on the day he dies.