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“White *Privilege is not having to create hashtags like #IfTheyGunnedMeDown

fma meme: memorable quote

It is a story about self discovery, and the long road to recovering one’s own identity after years of abuse and self neglect. V’s story is one we can all learn from.

I’ve heard that there’s been a lot of V hatred, and uh… That’s not okay.

Listen, I’ll be the first to admit that at the beginning of MysMe, I really disliked V. Not hate him, per se, but… Disliked him. And after the secret stories? I only pitied him. He was characterized originally as the “brooding artist” (and thanks, but I’ve had enough of that mess) who romanticized mental illness, mental pain, until it came back to bite him in the ass.

We can’t, no, we shouldn’t deny that in some way V is to blame for Rika’s breakdown, though I don’t doubt she would have lost it eventually by losing herself to her own delusions and machinations. Where V faltered, is in his lack of understanding. He didn’t understand himself, he didn’t understand other people, but most importantly? He didn’t understand that true love is something one must feel for one’s own self before feeling it for another person. He appeased the shit out of Rika, and he obsessed- YES RIKA, OBSESSED- over her until she snapped, and in turn, she obsessed and wounded him until he couldn’t see himself as anything other than “Rika’s Sun.” Until he lost himself. Until he defined himself by the actions and suffering she inflicted upon him, by only his past pain and failed attempt at renewal.

In a metaphorical sense? The neglect and carelessness he inflicted upon Rika was really in the end the abuse he inflicted upon himself. That’s not to say “he deserved it.” Far from that. He never deserved it, no one deserves that. No one deserves to be dammed with the incapability of loving themselves. Least of all those who were not taught selflove from the beginning.

V learns that you cannot define yourself by the love you give others, nor by the love you wish to receive from others. You must define yourself by the love you feel for your own, personal self.

After struggling through “Another Story,” fighting for this wonderful man’s freedom, from his abuser, from his own self hatred from his own self-abuse…?

How can you not love him?

And it’s true, you know? A major theme in this route is saving people. Saving someone. Saving V. Rika “saving” everyone.

But you can always only save one of them. In Yoosung’s route, you help him move on but you have no choice but to watch Seven crash and burn. Same with Jumin’s route. Only in Jumin’s route do you *sort of* help Jaehee by helping Jumin. In none of the other routes but his own does Yoosung confront his grief and quit LOLOL.

This theme is especially prevalent in V’s route. You have so many characters you want to help, so many that you want to save, but you can really only save one. Because it’s just not possible to save everyone, not without the risk of becoming like Rika.

Anyway, I feel like that’s why what happened to Saeran on day 10 happened. MC can’t save both V and Saeran, or even Rika. She couldn’t be there for Saeran the way she needed to be, because she had to be there for V. And poor Seven….

am i too late to post these o_O