The Artist's Phantom : Music|Art|Fashion

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There are going to be days when you get irritated by the tiniest of things. You don’t know why but you can’t help but be rude and yell. Especially to the people who are only trying to truly help. There are going to be days when you start crying like a baby even though the minute before you were laughing so loud. You have no idea why but the tears won’t stop and honestly, you don’t want them to either. Cry. It releases toxins and you will feel better after. There are going to be days when you don’t want to talk to someone you love even when they have done absolutely nothing for you be repelled by them. You don’t know why but just want to go away, run away from them. Run. It’s okay. There are going to be days when you are needed by someone you truly care about but you can’t help them. You can’t do anything for them because you are fighting to help yourself even though you don’t know what you’re fighting against. It’s okay. Fight. Wound. Heal. There’s no help you can give when you’re struggling to survive. They will understand. There are going to be days when you miss someone terribly even though they have done a great wrong to you. You don’t know where all the anger has vanished and you don’t want to feel this way. But you do. It’s okay. Feel. And remember, it’s not necessary that you will continue feeling this way for all days to come. The anger may return. But for now, it’s okay to miss them. Outbursts. Meaningless words. Hurtful behaviour. All of this happens because we try so hard to shove away how we feel. To ignore what our soul is trying to tell us, warn us against. It keeps knocking at our brains but we ignore. This is what I’ve learned. And I am going to try and remember all of this and apply it. I’m going to try hard, I swear.

1. Sometimes, the only way to survive the day is to breathe and that’s okay. Breathing is enough. You’ll get through this. Just don’t give up. 2. Don’t feel bad about yourself when you haven’t accomplished what needs to be done. You still have tomorrow. Everything is going to be fine. And don’t let your emotions and panic attacks take control over your whole being. 3. Do not breakdown when you are under pressure. Calm yourself. Inhale. Exhale. Repeat. Keep in mind the reason why you started what you’re doing in the first place and always be open to failures. Take failures as a lesson to make bigger progress on your next step. 4. If you feel like giving up, just remember the endgame on why you’re doing such thing. Always remember the prize that awaits after all the hardship that you’re going through. It’s going to be worth it. Believe in yourself and in what you can. 5. Rest when needed. Do not exhaust yourself. One step at a time. Rediscover your passion when needed. Concentrate. Focus on what you want to achieve. You will get to your destination, I promise

Someday, love.

To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.

1. She might annoy you because of her sudden change of mood but trust me it’s part of her life and for her, it’s normal and you only have to do is to understand her. 2. She will never tell it to you but she needs assurance. 100 percent assurance that she’s the one you love, the one you need, the one you want and the only person in your heart. She will get paranoid when you will fail to let her feel that she’s the only one. 3. She’s afraid. Always afraid. Her demons never let go of her so if she cries at night, don’t think that she’s crazy or she just wants your attention. No. She needs you to stat with her. Let her feel that she’s safe in your arms. 4. She fakes her own emotion sometimes so stare into her eyes and know if she’s really fine or she’s lying; if she’s lying, don’t give up asking her why and never let her feel that your losing patience to her. 5. If you really love her, show it to her and be patient to her because one thing is for sure, despite all of her actions, she will always be there for you and she will double the love that you gave to her

Find someone who makes you realise three things - one, that home is not a place but a feeling. Two, that time is not measured by a clock, but by moments. And three, that heartbeats are not heard, but felt and shared.

You always thought that I’m strong. But the truth is, I’m not. You think that I’m okay standing on my own, for facing problems on my own, and for being independent. I can, but the thing about appearing independent is that, people won’t care to ask how I am. I get sad, I feel depressed, and I also get weak. People admire me like a shining star in our beautiful sky. But little did they know that stars are far long dead. Being strong doesn’t mean I don’t need someone who will take my hand when if I feel so alone. Darkness is consuming me every now and then, and I want you but I can’t. I need you, but you don’t. I’m strong, but you’re my weakness. You’re gone and so am I.

Eventually you’ll end up where you need to be, with who you’re meant to be with, and doing what you should be doing.

You inspire me to want to be a better person, because of you I believe I can set goals and achieve them, it’s funny how love gives us hope, courage and strength. My heart will never be the same my beautiful friend.

You can’t let people scare you. You can’t go your whole life trying to please everyone. You can’t go through life worried about what everyone else is going to think. Whether it’ s your hair, clothes, what you have to say, how you feel, what you believe and what you have. You can’t let the judgment of others stop you from being you. Because if you do, you’re no longer you, you’re someone everyone wants you to be.

I am still learning to be kinder to myself on bad days. I am still learning doing the right thing for myself isn’t selfish, I am still learning to find more reasons than excuses, I am still learning that it’s not my mistake if people leave and I have learnt to not spend nights staying up for people who couldn’t care to stay. I am learning to be kinder to myself .

The moon seems so much more beautiful when I stare at it and think of you.