I'm sorry

do any of you people sleep

i am the same

What do I do at this point. I'm just waiting for something to happen. I don't know what. I'm unlikely to die in this way. So should I improve myself? No that would be stupid. There's nothing I could do that would make more than a tiny fraction of a difference. I am doomed and fucked up because my parents decided that they wanted me and cursed me with a deformed body. And there's no fix for it. Nothing that I would do. I do not do medicine, whether I want it or whether I absolutely need it. Not like it would make much of a difference. I'm also scared that anything that I do would give me a tiny will to live, and that would be inconvenient to deal with. I have to die, I don't want to create any possible roadblocks. Though maybe that's silly, I've never had any strong will to live even when I was very young and didn't care about anything. I just wish I could go without everything falling apart in my absence. They are selfish for it. They are evil for torturing me like this.