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Not a curse but I fucking need this right now .

hope all my followers stumble into some cash to-night~

Could use some money right now.

Sometimes I reblog prosperity spell memes. Because why not?

Bank account is negative dollars, I could use some help.  Please, Ten of Pentacles…

It's worth sharing bc I could really use anything positive at this point

im tired of feeling like everything I do is wrong and that im the problem. I try to help out, but even that isn’t enough. no matter how hard I try, im still the one making things worse for everyone.

no offense to me or anything but what the fuck am i actually doing

wow having bpd is so much fun like you can be doing great for a while then the smallest hint of rejection or abandonment comes and hits you then you spiral down back into chronic emptiness

I wish I could just die 🙃 lol

Something that really fucking sucks about BPD is that there’s no satiation. It doesn’t matter how much attention I get or how good I feel I’ll always go back to the empty pit of longing and not feeling good enough and it fucking sucks.

I'm never good enough

One of the most challenging things I’ve had to learn is that healing must be intentional. There is no one golden day that comes and saves you from all your misery. Healing is a practice. You have to decide that it’s what you want to do and actively do it. You have to make a habit out of it. Once I learned that, I only looked back to see how far I came.

If you ever lose interest in me, please respect me enough to tell me. Don’t keep me in your life to gain confidence and energy from my affection, loyalty and genuine kindness. Let me go, so I can pour my time, patience and energy into someone who’ll value and respect me, in the way you never could.

do u ever just get hurt by everything because I sure do lmao.

Why can’t i enjoy anything in moderation? its either listen to a band on repeat for 3 days straight or completely ignore them for 4 months. its either binge watch an entire season on netflix in 2 days or forget that the show even exists. Why can’t I enjoy things to a normal degree? why does the thought of slowing down make me feel sick? why am I like this?

Me to my anxiety : can u like calm down these people don’t even think about you Depression : ever Me: that’s not what I meant