under my skin, where you've always been

i feel like every single person in my system is either a medically fragile baby rescue bunny or the angriest person you've ever met and it does make it difficult to be friends with me

and its all just gone forever and i have to be okay with that.

i literally just dont think im healed enough to deal with this shit im ngl

literally whatever why dont we just stop talking forever then i wont be around to fuck up your life anymore. whatever. nevermind that none of this is even my fucking fault. nevermind that you made promises over and over and over that you didnt keep. nevermind any of that. whatever !!! just leave. you have a life and a relationship to fall back on so who cares. just fucking be done with me forever.

why am i so easy for everyone to move on from

you said you missed when it was easy im so sorry i made it so fucking hard for everyone.

if id just been good enough things wouldve worked out.

all of them have completely moved on from me and i havent moved on from any of them and i feel more alone than ive ever felt and I keep trying to make friends and do things but i have no energy and im bad at it and i just want the period of my life back when things were good. fuck.