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The Record

This is a personal system space.

It exists alongside, not in place of, the main blog.

Posts here are casual, internal, and situational.

Voices rotate. Structure remains.

Religious and satanic imagery is symbolic and reclaimed.

Tags indicate function or topic, not identity.

Not everything posted here is meant for discussion.

The inbox is open. Access is not guaranteed.

More Casual Intro

This is a side blog specifically for general life of our system, shitposts, etc. The main blog @infernalis-crypture focuses more on educational content and is more impersonal towards those engaging with us. This blog aims to be more of a casual daily or weekly thing.

Quick System Overview

We have 3 rotating hosts, with the most common being Echo and Fen. Not all posts will be marked with a name but we have made a taglist masterpost explaining how our tags work. We have started doing alter introductions even if alters won't be signing off on posts.

We are bodily intersex and a person of color, however we were raised under white supremacy and are still dismantling it, so we may make mistakes and would appreciate being corrected.

We're a Polyfragmented DID system, OEA/RAMCOA survivor and traumagenic. We're in the process of deprogramming so there may be some posts on here that are darker than others. We're neutral on many topics including endogenics and paraphilias, however in regards to paraphilias we are STRICTLY NO CONTACT. We do not endorse or support pro or neutral contact. We do not want syscourse on this blog but respectful discussion is always welcome. We're a lot friendlier than we seem based on our main blog and won't be hostile unless given a reason.

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Taglist here

#The Abstract #The Crown #tcb tag

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The Void

There is a place beneath my thoughts where nothing grows.

A hollow so vast it has forgotten what light was for.

It does not scream. It does not hunger. It simply waits, patient as gravity, consuming everything that drifts too close.

Somewhere within it a wounded creature bellows; not from pain, but from knowing.

It knows that if it ever falls silent, if its lungs finally surrender, there will be nothing left to prove it was ever alive.

So it claws at walls that have no end, fights a prison without bars, and fills the emptiness with the sound of refusing to disappear.

Sometimes I wonder if the void fears it too.

After all, even endless nothing would become lonelier once the echoes stopped.

#The Fray #The Static #tcb tag #poetry #my words

The more I look at my coworkers the less hope I have for the future generation, at least in my country, and especially the cis men. They're both 18 but oh my goddddd they have absolutely no common sense or respect.

I'm essentially their manager and sure this may be a bit linked to my NPD but like. In what world is it fine to tell your manager to make you a sandwich? And not in the sense of a joke, this was fully in the tone you may think it is. Yes, I am transmasc and yes I have a high voice despite how I look, so they see me as female.

Fine, whatever, I don't care much about how people perceive my gender. But goddamn if you're gonna be a misogynistic POS about it of course I'm gonna get pissed off.

So close to literal fighting my coworkers atp istg.

#The Fracture #The Edge #The Vault #tcb tag

narcissisticpdcultureis

vulnerable NPD culture is "if i show any signs of disagreement or distaste theyre gonna think less of me and then im gonna be worthless to them" even if the friend group you know is trustworthy

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#The Marginalia #The Edge #tcb tag

narcissisticpdcultureis

npd culture is hating with every bone in your body when someone makes you feel stupid, or tries to say you are stupid. Anyone who makes me feel that way needs to go die because who do you think you are

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#The Marginalia #The Edge #tcb tag

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Super funny that some people have transASPD, transNPD and transSzPD as labels tbh. Like dude. Your "tips" for "being" ASPD/NPD/SzPD just make a mockery of those disorders. It's all fun and games to "act like X" but I've conveniently never seen anything about it destroying relationships, making you lose your job, being isolated because people can't stand you/handle your symptoms etc. Get a life.

#The Regent #The Janus #The Witness #The Watcher #The Aside #tcb tag #ASPD #NPD #SzPD #actually aspd #actually npd #actually szpd #actually antisocial #actually narcissistic #actually schizoid #narcissistic personality disorder #antisocial personality disorder #schizoid personality disorder #this is about transIDs

After a TON of internal work and some of the stress of the past few weeks, we found out that some of our alters who are very very old have fused together! I know not everyone in the system community likes talking about fusion and integration but for us personally this is a huge sign of progress as these parts fusing have made us much more stable.

#The Crown #The Threshold #tcb tag

We haven't been super active here recently due to work and we're currently in the process of transferring system data after the SP shutdown. Once all of that is finished we'll likely start posting more here again, especially since quite a few things have changed in the last few weeks.

#The Regent #The Aside #tcb tag

Being prone to hosts fusing every year or so then angrily having to update everything bc Oh Yeah This Dude Fused is so annoying. LET US HAVE A CONSISTENT HOST!!

#The Crown #The Pattern #tcb tag

Another Friday wooo

At least we've gotten further with Simply Plural organization, mostly been working and the heat is trying to end my ass. Gonna get pizza later so that's a win. Rn I honestly just wanna sleep, stimulants ain't doing shit for the narcolepsy today

#The Regent #The Aside #tcb tag

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Started doing some mind mapping in order to translate it into simply plural since our sp is a chaotic mess. Numbers in the circles aren't accurate to amount of alters, so.

#The Web #tcb tag

Taglist for Navigation / Explanation Purposes

🜂 BRANDING TAG

tcb tag — used to mark our posts between reblogs to any of our side or main accounts

🜂 ALTER ROLE TAGS

We don't sign off with names, so these will be the tags used.

The Crown — Hosts

The Regent — Co-hosts

The Hound — Protectors

The Blade — Avengers

The Thorn — Persecutors (internal)

The Hand — Perpetrators (external-facing)

The Hearth — Caretakers

The Guide — Internal Self Helpers

The Young — Littles / Teens

The Watcher — Gatekeepers

The Hunger — Paraphilia Holders

The Fracture — Disorder Holders

The Vessel — Emotion Holders

The Witness — Trauma Holders

The Echo — Fictives

The Forge — Brainmades

The Janus — Protector / Persecutor

The Hera — Caretaker / Persecutor

The Null — An alter who does not have a role / does not want it known

🜂 SYSTEM TOPIC TAGS

What the post is doing, not who is posting

Orientation / Onboarding

The Abstract — pinned intro, system overview

The Unsealed — navigation, tag lists, masterposts

The Charter — boundaries, rules, disclaimers

The Names — naming conventions, terminology

System Process

(meta, overview, how-we-think-about-it posts)

The Web — posts about system structure, organization, or how things connect

The Record — documentation, references, explanations, or written notes (logs, write-ups, informational posts, archived thoughts)

The Pattern — recurring themes, observations, or repeated experiences (noticing trends, parallels, or familiar topics)

The Threshold — transitions, changes, or moments of movement (before/after posts, updates, shifts in focus)

The Static — fragmented thoughts, low-context posts, or hard-to-articulate material (disjointed writing, half-formed ideas, noise)

Internal Work

The Mirror — self-examination, reflection

The Fray — instability, internal conflict

The Still — shutdown, freeze, low-affect states

🜂 GENERAL / NON-SYSTEM POSTING

Random everyday posts

The Ambient — vibes, aesthetic posts

The Drift — shitposts, offhand thoughts

The Marginalia — reblogs

The Aside — commentary that may / may not be tied to system things

The Noise — memes, chaos, low-context posting

🜂 STRUCTURE & IDENTITY TOPICS

The Edge — impulsivity, volatility, aggression

The Distance — detachment, flattening, withdrawal

The Signal — autistic processing, ADHD content, sensory load

The Body — intersex, transmasc (etc.) related content

The Inheritance — race, culture, POC experience

🜂 CONTAINMENT / SAFETY TAGS

The Seal — private posts / archive / for later

The Vault — vents etc

The Redacted — dark topics, OEA/RAMCOA, abuse etc.

#The Unsealed #tcb tag

anxikae

my living dead girl

#The Drift #tcb tag

clutching-our-plurals

Okay, very genuine questions here, for my systems who post a lot of information about their parts!

We are still newer to more interactive system spaces, and I see many systems who post a lot of personal information about their alters.

Stuff like names, ages, all that stuff. Even who is fronting at any and every given time that they post, whether with emojis or tags for whoever is fronting, or even signing off with their names. Or long intro posts about who all everyone is. It seems fairly common to me. We don't really do that. We don't often share names or ages, rarely even "system roles." Especially online, even in designated spaces.

So, I'm genuinely curious, for my systems that do post a lot of personal information about their parts:

What is the appeal of posting such personal things?

A more specific one for those who use emojis or name sign-offs in post, equally genuine and respectfully curious:

What is the appeal of letting people know who's fronting all the time?

Like, no shade, at all. I just really am very curious and I want to understand why someone might do that. Like, from a very genuine place of not understanding and wanting to understand just to... understand!

Oh, and a question to my fellow systems who do NOT share their information like this:

Why do you personally prefer not to share more information about your parts?

Our answer to that last question 👇

the-choir-below

Oh I like this.

What is the appeal of posting such personal things?

In regards to ages and names, it depends HEAVILY on the part for us. People close to us know a bit more but things we do post that are more public facing are usually parts that are relatively stable and functional, we don't keep body age a secret and it's up to each individual part whether they want to share their name/age/roles etc, even with introductions on our page, if an alter doesn't want to introduce themself or omit specific information they're well within their right to do so, and in some cases a gatekeeper will edit anything out that they deem unsafe to share. And in regards to ages... we mostly also don't share those freely since many of us simply don't have an age that we know of, so it's kind of pointless. We're more open to sharing host roles for example than we would be sharing who are trauma or paraphilia holders etc. And this comes from personal bad experiences. We had to learn the hard way what to share and what not to share. We also don't share vulnerable parts' information, whether that be name, age, role, whatever.

What is the appeal of letting people know who is fronting all the time?

I don't think this is particularly applicable to us but I'll answer anyway since we do have parts that make themselves known. For some parts (and I think this ties in a bit with our NPD to be honest), they want to be known or seen in some capacity even if that isn't necessarily by sharing personal information. I'm not entirely sure about the motivations behind each part's choice to make themselves known, but it could be a multitude of things especially since we're very covert in real life.

Why do you personally prefer not to share more information about your parts?

We're generally very strict or cautious about what is shared especially due to our OEA history, but also because when we used to share very personal information (granted this was due to being diagnosed young and trying to fit in with the system communities at the time), we would have people triggering out specific alters. Which, obviously, is unhealthy and in some cases downright dangerous. I did cover in the first question some of what we don't freely share depending on parts, but a system wide rule for us is absolutely not sharing triggers under any circumstances, whether that is public or even to very close friends. The only person who knows some of our triggers is our partner of 5 years and that is mainly due to what she's observed, not us telling her. And yes, there's still a lot we don't know about our system anyway and we go through bouts of amnesia where we completely forget what would otherwise be considered important information.

#The Marginalia #tcb tag #polyfrag did #dissociative system #system stuff #cdd system #dissociative identity disorder #did system #The Crown

tracheaxe

I don’t often hang out in system communities online, and I’m also frequently reminded of why I don’t.

I’m speaking as a diagnosed system that has a few fictives from shows in my childhood and teens— Being a fictive does not mean you’re that character. Being a fictive does not mean people should treat you as that character; or not appreciate that character like they would normally because “it's you.” Being a fictive does not mean you’re entitled to ship rules. “I’m a fictive of x character and I hate this ship! I don’t want to be shipped!” Nobody fucking cares. People aren’t shipping you, they’re shipping a character. I could go on about the idiotic things I hear from fictives that believe being such makes them some sort of God in fandom spaces. It does not.

If you’re a fictive and can’t handle fandom spaces because you’re incredibly source attached and can’t bear to imagine not being that character, then don’t fucking indulge in them. Nobody wants to hear that.

#The Marginalia #agreed as a fictive #tcb tag

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clutching-our-plurals

Not right now kitten, the voices are monologuing about the hubris of mankind again.

#The Marginalia #tcb tag

Since it's friday and I'm off this weekend I'm seriously considering maybe using an edible and just catching up on some Netflix shows in our list. December was rough and it's calming down now so I feel like a night of weed, relaxing, ramen and tv would really help us "reset" for the year ahead. I also need to organise our simply plural so if I work that in instead of Netflix that's cool too.

#The Aside #The Crown #tcb tag

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