#yourecool

hello table/ann!

So this is a blog... I’m 29 years old.  I have been given every opportunity imaginable to do whatever it is I’d like to do. Yet, I’m here writing a blog at 12:20 am on a Thursday night/ Friday morning. Please understand I am not complaining in the slightest, I feel very lucky to be healthy, have a roof over my head, and a car to get me places that doesn’t break down (anymore).  But, for my whole life I haven’t found something I feel destined to do. I was classically trained at music when I was three. I love music and play my guitar every day.  I think I have written some really great songs, but unfortunately I can’t sing. So for years I have tried to work with other singers and collaborate with them, hoping they would like the chords and compositions I’d bring to them and be as invested as I am to be successful. When I want something, I work beyond imaginably hard to get it (more on that later). But after almost eight years now... no one seems to share the combination of drive/work ethic, and interest/connection with me and my music.     So, I think it’s only fair to ask myself, and you guys, if anyone actually reads this, for advice or help or suggestions. And to ask myself, “Well maybe this hasn’t worked out for a reason, maybe I’m supposed to be doing something else with my life.”   I think that’s a good idea to acknowledge and accept in general, “It hasn’t worked out for a reason.” I have had career counselors give me personality tests, of course I am split between like six of the 16 personality types, right on the border of all of them. I have met with spiritual advisors whom recommend maybe I go back to school or learn a trade, I have met with successful businessmen (and women), met with my parents, my friends, my brother, my dog, my cat lol... You get the idea.. So I don’t know. Here is what I do know. I am creative, I am musical, I have been told I am smart (sometimes too smart for my own good), I like using my hands (sometimes), I like gratification with my work, (Writing a song doesn’t usually take more than a couple days, if that, I don’t think I could ever spend a year writing a novel, those guys are geniuses and I applaud the shit out of everyone who even had the dedication to complete it. That’s not to say I couldn’t spend six months making an album, there’s more instant gratification that comes with finishing parts of the song, like the lyrics, the progression the vocal mix, and so on.. That was a long aside, lol sorry.) Anyway back to the list, I very much appreciate all forms of art, abstract expressionism, a beautifully designed building, a chic interior decor, many forms of fashion, a genius turn of the phrase.. here’s another aside, I apologize.. The movie tag line for that stupid Ocean’s 8 rip off, anyway “Every Pro Has Its Cons.” HOW GOOD IS THAT!!?? God that’s impressive haha. So if you’ve read this far, this is me. I’m mostly good natured, I love animals, I only would like to help people, never any desire to make peoples’ lives worse, and after years and years of being clinically depressed I’d like to think I’m mostly a good person.   So if anyone out there has ideas or recommendations for me, I will read every single one. I think I will upload some super crude voice memo style recordings of some of my songs and compositions so you guys can get an ever better feel for me. Who knows maybe you guys won’t hate them. Also, I’m gonna start posting to this thing relatively frequently, but with hopefully useful stuff I’ve learned like, “How to deal with anxiety,” “Follow these habits to fight off depression for good,” “This is where the best chocolate chip cookie in the city can be found.” “Movie reviews” stuff like that. Nice to meet all of you and I think you are uniquely cool people who deserve everything you want in the world.  I love you. Rob Taylor

I love you !!