Reinstalled and reopened the IG App on my Phone again. Logged in for like 10 min. and deinstalled it. Funny how self-reflection fundamentally changed my point of view . I also logged in on my pc after that , to check out a site that posts about astrology ( I like it very much). Looked over a few profiles of people Ive been following regularly (checking stories out, pics, vids). What shall I say. I feel much better when I DON’T check the profiles of certain people everyday. Yes, my tumblr consumption has indeed increased but so has the community here. I am very thankful for this growth we are going through together, from all around the world. I also realize how I follow a lot of people on IG who I know personally and that’s basically it. Haven’t been in touch f2f for years. Makes me think about a real (or rather unreal) connection to them. It is good to openely talk about it here. Will our paths cross again? Ive been following them for years, yet I haven’t seen them for years in person. I dont wanna be a virtual part of somebody’s live everyday without being a physical part of it ( Ofc I mean the people I do know in person). Simply doesn’t feel right. Feels plastic and unreal. Feels more like admiring and observing and less than communicating and interacting. Real, authentic and personal connection is what I define as friendship. Not the digital facade of a person. There is a huge difference between seeking sensation and wanting to be seen. That’s what I am learning right now for sure. So many people build their lives on seeking sensation in a way what can easily happen through oversharing. Enormous amounts of dopamine are being released and people get addicted to it, constantly seeking for more and never finding it. Instead, feeling into privacy and awareness is enabling us to worship each moment, experience, feeling. A proper and conscious regulation of social networking IS a huge factor if you really wanna work on your mental health. I feel like IG is distracting me more frequently that tumblr ever did; besides that I have always focussed and loved the writing part about tumblr and that it really feels like blogging. Always thankful for continous writing flow and inspiration here. IG is very stuffed with all kinds of ideas, posts and quotes, so it is very hard do differentiate what is fake and what is not. It requires an intensified ‘filtering process’ in the brain.Writing and reflecting about it helps me to figure this filtration out and regulate my media consumption healthily.
