#wholness

Nosferatu Tarot: The World

It seems, then, that the answer to the question of why the scientists are so deeply interested in their work is not to be found on such a superficial level. Scientists are seeking something that is much more significant to them than pleasure. One aspect of what this something might be can be indicated by noting that the search is ultimately aimed at the discovery of something new that had previously been unknown. But, of course, it is not merely the novel experience of working on something different and out of the ordinary that the scientist wants—this would indeed be little more than another kind of “kick.” Rather, what he is really seeking is to learn something new that has a certain fundamental kind of significance: a hitherto unknown lawfulness in the order of nature, which exhibits unity in a broad range of phenomena. Thus, he wishes to find in the reality in which he lives a certain oneness and totality, or wholeness, constituting a kind of harmony that is felt to be beautiful. In this respect, the scientist is perhaps not basically different from the artist, the architect, the musical composer, etc., who all want to create this sort of thing in their work.

We think ‘self-love’ is about fixing our broken pieces, or molding ourselves into something else. We think we need to be better, stronger, as close to ‘perfect’ as possible. And so we set up these unrealistic expectations for ourselves and then wonder why we’re so unhappy and unsatisfied, wonder why we’re left disappointed and unfulfilled. We think that ‘finding’ ourselves is synonymous with ‘fixing’ ourselves—that we continually have to reform or change who we’ve been to become something worthy of love and light. But we are not broken beings; we don’t need to be fixed.