#whatever comes

And at the same time I'm like so proud of her for how she pulls through shit (like fighting SW and Hordak and demolishing them, ay, or the whole Crimson Waste stuff)

Like oh god yes I know this girl is so broken and makes SUCH bad choices and she's utterly fucked up and all these people only send her spiraling further down but she's clawing and fighting all the way and I can't help but LOVE that fact

I can't sleep so you know what? We're doing this now, the fallout be damned. I'm tired of hiding. If I'm going to live in this world and worship Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, I'm going to do it as me and no one else can take that from me.

I identify as asexual and agender. Basically, this means that I don't experience sexual desire and I don't identify as being a man or a woman. I've tried to tell myself differently my whole life up until a few years ago when I learned that those things even exist and suddenly everything about my life made sense.

You can't say I didn't try to talk myself out of it. The church said what I was feeling was false - that it couldn't be true. Heck, there's even an entire revelation called the Proclamation to the World saying that it can't be true. But that can't tell me how I feel and I'm tired of fighting it. You can believe whatever you want about me, but I don't care.

I'm embracing these parts of me in front of a world that may or may not value me after this. Heck, I might even be jeopardizing my chances of getting a job for posting this weird stuff. If it does, I'm glad. I'm not hiding any part of myself any longer.

But I usually understand and am okay with the lead getting the girl. I just want my second male lead happy too!!!

Clematis ‘Arabella’ (on the left)