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It was an ordinary day for me. As always. I wasn't bitter or anything. I'm just so used to spending Valentines the normal way. Going out with 1 or 2 friends are just a plus. But really, its a normal day for someone like me. Except the tremendous traffic. Being single in Valentines Day, I ask myself if I'll ever feel special on that day where every couple I see has hearts on their eyes. Will I ever come to a day where I'll be seeing hearts plastered on my own eyes too? Even if I say that, "its fine," is it really? Let's face it. I still get jealous at other women having a man by their side. I still envy couples who tell how much they love each other. But I am NOT bitter. I am JUST longing. But I didn't expect something to happen right after Valentines Day. Sunday noon, a miracle happened. Yes it's a miracle, because someone made me special that day. To which isn't a norm for me because, "Hey, I am the single girl no one ever notices. So why would I get a surprise?" I saw a chocolate bar on my bag! I don't know if my mind is playing tricks on me but one thing I know is I don't have any chocolate bar when I last opened my bag. Countless of possibilities came to mind. Did someone just wanted me to hold on to their chocolate until they'll get it later? Is someone playing a trick on me? Did they just mistakenly put the chocolate in my bag? I don't know. Then one assuming thought came to mind: "Did HE put this inside my bag?" But I just brushed it off thinking why would he even do that for me when He doesn't care about Valentines or me at all. So I cross-marked that thought. But one text message changed my life then and there. "Pinakialaman ko na bag mo. Wag ka magviolent reaction. Belated. (I just meddled with your bag. Don't do any violent reactions. Belated.)" - Will. That's the answer to my questions. He is the one that gave me the chocolate bar. Imagine the turmoil of happiness I'm keeping inside just not to cause any violent reaction. But still I kept my cool and played like nothing happened. While inside my head, a lot of things kept popping. Realizations like how private He really is with personal matters, how he managed to keep it a secret from me and everyone. Its amazing really. I'm just wondering if this is all planned or just in the moment thingy? But I'm still glad because He remembered me. Even if I'm not the only one whom he gave some chocolates, its still ok. At least He remembered me. The fact that someone finally made me special on Valentines is a blessing. I thank God so much for the surprise He planned for me. Even if it's late, it's still better than nothing. And another realization on that day: Whichever date it is, in God's eyes, YOU are special. Every day should be hearts day. It doesn't depend on having a date for a special day but its all about sharing God's love. And loving the one that started it all. The One who loves us first, the Lord himself. As for me, I am going to treasure the moment God made for him and I. Waiting patiently and praying for the Lord's plan for the both us, I'd continue on doing that. Let Your will be done Lord!

That is the question that I needed to answer as soon as possible. I gave him something random this Christmas so I wanted to give him something he could use and has a purpose for his birthday. But what is it? Well in the end, whatever it is that I will be giving him, it doesn't matter. For me to see him smile and be happy, that is all worth the effort. I still have 8 days to prepare so let's hope for the best :)

And yeah, I’m not even close to being done but I’ll wrap it up. Sigh. I just want to get these all out as soon as possible. So God, help me.

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What we'll do now is wait for the perfect opportunity to talk about our differences, likes, PROBLEMS and our decision. Final decision if after the talk, our love for each other is still the same. But I trust God that He will do something and intercede when that time comes. He promised that "Everything will be alright, my child." And that is the assurance that we both need. 

I love you. Though, you didn't love me, too. I still do. We are opposite. You are creative and funny. Just as bright as sunny. I am quiet and reserved. Dazed in my own thoughts if you observe. But we are both the same, To love God and not treat it as a game. Maybe this is fate, That you cannot be my date. But I would still wait, Till the Father will say You're my mate. - Mhei (January 2013)

I don't want to assume too much cause you said so. But you somehow gave me hope and the idea for the future. Maybe someday, I can safely assume that "You and I," wouldn't be impossible.