I can't do much. I'm not useful to this system in a way that matters. I'm not a protector/host/persecutor or anything else. I'm just me. I'm the sibling of the introject the dependent of the old persecutor. I don't have a role like everyone else seems to. But I have one thing on them. I'm not part of that house. I'm the only one around right now that can say that. None of us know where Damian is right now, so I'm alone.
And I may not have many skills that matter. I may not be able to function much, I can't be very mobile and I don't do social well. But right now? I have crime shows, a cuddly Pikachu and a slight obsession with aesthetic boards. But you know what else? That seems to be exactly what our new persecutor needs. I've known Chris a lot longer than a lot of these guys cuz she split from my brother. Sure she won't talk to me and wants to be mostly alone. She hides at the back of my awareness, but I know she's there.
And maybe some Death in Paradise and some cuddles with my Pikachu plush is what she needs. I can tell when she reacts to the boards I like and reblog, like we're connected in some small way.
I may not have a role that counts. But right now I can help her more than anyone.
And that's what matters.
- Maxx
