#wastedlife

Wonder why people can't accept that I messed up my life? They always making excuses in my behalf. College is a #mistake I have to live with for the rest of my life. It was all my fault. No one force me to go. No one put a gun to my head and sad I had to go. I sign on the dotted line when it came to student loans, not my parents for anyone else. Got degrees with no employment prospects. It is my fault. No one else's. It was my arrogance and ego that did this to me. Before you make an excuse that College was for self improvement. No self improvement is worth $114,000 in student debt. On top of it. College is not there for self improvement. It is there to help you get work. Nothing more, nothing less. Thanks to my poor life choices in this area. I can’t work full time with out wage garnishment. Can’t start a business, as I am seen as a risk by the people who give out money to start businesses. Lot of jobs require credit checks, and I can’t pass that to save my life. In the area I live college degrees are seen as a negative, not a positive. There for even if I did not have the issues of the above. I still could not get work to save my life. 

People should see my choices and no replicate them. Use me as a example. Don’t do what I have done. Otherwise you will end up like me. As nothing more then a debt slave to the state. With very little options for the future. 

Time

When we were young we didn’t value time, sure we knew it exist but we never thought to harvest and value time. Time is something that lays dormant like a spider sitting on its web. Time sees and hears everything, I’m sure that time always smiles when the words come out of your mouth “I got time to do it”. I like to refer to time as she/her pronoun because clearly, it can’t be a male because we all know that men have little to know patience.

Let’s think about some of the quotes or saying that deal with time.

Time waits for no one. Time is the most valuable thing a person can spend Time is money Lost time is never found again

The list goes on and on but we get the gist of it.

Think of all the wasted time you have used either on a relationship, job, partying, or just existing without a purpose, without a care, or thought about how many countless hours you have wasted. Those hours or moments you can never get back. Measuring time is hard because everyone uses his or her time in different ways.

Years have passed and we sit and think where did the time go? Time is a virtue now because we have slowed down enough to see that he has indeed passed us by. You have seen plenty of good times as well as bad times. Is this just a moment in time or is this just beginning of the end? Hopefully, not the latter but at least we have time to value or embrace time for what’s worth.

Do yourself a favor and track the time you use in a day between work, school, leisure, or family time. After you have tracked it see how much time do you use on other things and how much time you actually spend with yourself.

Meditation is a way to recharge yourself, maybe take a hot long soak in the tub. Try to exist in your moment in time, Try to spend at least a couple hours a day just on yourself,

"be kind," by Charles Bukowski