Iāve been rereading Acid Tokyo because I Love Suffering and Iām so fixated on that one panel where kurogane places syaoranās eyepatch on fai because it always feels so oddly intimate to me. The way both of their figures are silhouetted with kuroās expression hidden means itās one of the few times the audience isnāt privy to something even though the other characters can see it. Idk Iāve always framed that panel as something for kuroganeās eyes only even though yuukoās clearly in the background
ābecause I Love Sufferingā is the most accurate description of this entire fanbase as far as I can tell. Is it this page here?
Because youāre absolutely right! Itās such an important and private moment, hiding it from us really lets us feel the intimacy in the action even as Yuuko tells us more dire information.Ā
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More lovely notes from the even lovelier @giniroangou!
Highlights include: more coherent wish conversations, lifespan clarifications, Kamui being even worse than before, itās true, sweet lines from sweet people, Nick finally understanding why Sakura had to go into the Acid desert alone, clothing choices explained, touching moments all around, and Good Morning Kurogane Redux!Ā
Chapter 125
p.5 - Yuuko says that if she were to save Fai herself, the price would be ātoo heavy.ā This is why Kurogane looks so murderous - it sounds like sheās telling them she wonāt do it. This also makes Subaruās wish a few pages later feel less presumptuous. Heās not cutting in on the Tsubasa family; their turn is already over.
p.7 - As in the previous volume, this should be āImmediately after we came to this worldā rather than āSoon after,ā but I love the hilarity itās caused.
p.12 - Subaruās point is that the events that unfolded may have been inevitable, but they wouldnāt have happened within the reservoir if it werenāt for his presence there. It still doesnāt quite make sense, since it wasnāt his fault he got sucked in by the feathers in the first place, but itās slightly more coherent than the translated version.
p.19 - Itās not that Fai must not receive vampire blood alone, but that if we were to receive just vampire blood he would end up drinking the blood of various people.
Thereās also a subtle difference in wording about the wishes here that I feel changes the nuance slightly. Yuuko says: āKurogane, keeping Fai from dying is your wish. Fai doesnāt want that.ā
Chapter 126
p.30 - The sounds Fai is making in this scene are represented by a small tsu in Japanese (ć), which indicates either a pause in speech or a glottal stop. To me, it gives the impression that Faiās vocal chords are under pressure but thereās no real sound coming out, so itās like silent/suppressed screaming. Itās up to interpretation, but if he is making any noise here it isnāt anything coherent enough to be the start of a given word.
p.32 - I would interpret Satsukiās line as an apology for not being able to heal Fai earlier.
p.35 - Yuuko says that due to Faiās enormous magical powers, he already had a long lifespan. For her line about his age vs Kuroganeās, āmultiple timesā could be an alternative translation to āmany times.ā In Japanese she says ānanbai mo,ā which Iād say could be as few as four times (though it does have the potential to be much greater than that.)
As a side note, there is a fan translated version of this scene where Yuuko says that Kuroganeās lifespan will increase along with Faiās. A large portion of the fandom was led to believe this and there are still people who are unaware of the proper translation, so if you see anything along those lines popping up in meta or fanfic, thatās where it comes from. It is based on a mistranslation, though.
p.36 - In the original text, Kurogane says that he saw the trust Mokona had in Yuuko when Mokona asked for her help. Since he trusts Mokona, he went along with the deal. (Just replace Mokonaās name with āthat thingā lol.)
p.41 - Kamuiās āIt was nothingā is ruder and more dismissive in Japanese. He says ā...betsu ni,ā which I think could best be represented in English as ā...whatever.ā Itās a total sulky teenager response.
Mokona is saying that things will be difficult for Fai from now on specifically because heās a nice person.
p.43 - A little detail that I love: Yuuko refers to Fai as āthat childā in this scene. It feels somewhat affectionate, but also gives the sense that Yuuko has been around for a very long time, especially in light of the recent revelation about Faiās age.
Kurogane is actually setting his priorities here - he says there are still things he wants to ask, but the underground water comes first.
p.44 - Sadly, Subaru is not sharing the blame with Kamui in this scene - heās still just saying itās his fault.
Chapter 127
p.58 - Sakuraās first words to Lava Lamp are spoken in polite language vs the casual speech she used with Syaoran, creating an immediate distance between them that colors the silent exchange that follows.
Chapter 128
p.70 - Here, Yuuko is saying that the impurity of the water is its strength; because it hasnāt been sterilized it still has its natural power. (The antidote thing is a mistranslation.)
p.75 - Fuumaās comment about having no means of communication is specifically in reference to Yuuko: āSince coming to this world Iāve had no way to communicate, so itās been a while since we last spoke.ā
p.76 - Fuuma refers to Subaru as āSubaru-san.ā He also says Seishirou is in Subaruās debt (āosewa ni narimashitaā) - itās a polite expression that may imply kindness, but the focus is more on Subaru doing him a favor/helping him rather than on Subaruās attitude towards him.
p.84 - Sakuraās actual original line was, āTell me everything thatās happened up until now,ā so though sheās logically asking about everything thatās happened in Acid Tokyo, you can totally interpret this as her asking about all the things that have happened since the start of the manga. Follow your dreams!
p.87 - Iām not sure if this got lost in translation or just didnāt fully sink in, but Sakura is going out alone because that specifically is the price. If someone went with her, it wouldnāt be enough for the deal - the true value of what Sakuraās doing comes from the fact that she is undertaking something dangerous without anyone to help her.
p.89 - Kurogane doesnāt specifically tell Sakura to come back alive, but he does tell her to go and come back (āittekoiā/č”ć£ć¦ę„ć) so the implication is there. Then he says, āWeāll be right here until you return.ā
Chapter 129
p.93 - In Fuumaās original line there was no implication that Sakuraās trip would be easy, just that the compass would confirm the route for her.
p.97 - Fuuma doesnāt say that the Tower will be victorious, but that theyāll have an advantage without Kamui there.
p.103 - Mokonaās speech style made this scene difficult to translate, but sheās not really asking for permission to call Lava Lamp āSyaoranā - she doesnāt actually use his name at all outside of that one question. Sheās just confirming that he does indeed have the same name as their Syaoran: āYouāre named Syaoran too, arenāt you?ā (The official translation really committed to the fact that Mokona never uses personal pronouns, which is pretty cool in theory but unfortunately ends up forcing some of her sentences into very different configurations. As Iāve mentioned before, itās far easier to get by in Japanese without pronouns than it is in English.)
Chapter 130
Cover page - This chapter title should be āThe Crossed Lineā (In the sense of someone crossing or stepping over a line.)
p.116 - To highlight how significant this moment is, the original line has quotation marks around Kuroganeās name. It also comes after a pause, so it becomes: āā¦. Good morning, āKurogane.āā
p.125 - There are some major mistranslations here. There is no implication that Yuuko was lying about Faiās potential to stop being a vampire. Fai calls her soft for leaving that path open - he sees it as a favor she did for the other members of the group (implied: this isnāt something he wants for himself.) Yuuko then says that it may be more cruel to give them this option than to have Fai unable to return to the way he was before, but thatās up to Fai. (Implied: the choices Fai makes regarding his options are going to determine whether it makes things more painful for his family or not.) Side note: The word thatās been translated as ātraveler friendsā is actually āSyaoran-kun-tachiā (Syaoran-kun and the others) so itās not as distant as it sounds, but itās definitely stepping around Kuroganeās direct role and investment in Faiās well-being.
p.126 - The word Yuuko uses can be translated as āreply,ā but I think āanswerā would be more appropriate. She says, ā... So thatās your answer?ā referring not to Faiās literal reply to Kurogane, but rather affirming that pushing Kurogane away is his answer to the entire situation heās in.
p.127 - Fai doesnāt speculate that Kurogane had never been given a nickname - Fai says that he himself had never called anyone by a nickname before.
p.128 - Once again, the word thatās been translated as āunhappyā also means misfortune in a general sense. Itās the same word Himawari uses to talk about her effect on the people around her. Happiness may be the ideal, but I would assume Fai is worried about much more serious things than just that - if the people he cares about are unhappy but otherwise unharmed, thatās still better than a lot of alternatives.
p.129 - Whatās been translated as āall the young ones in your groupā was originally Yuuko saying āthose children.ā Given that she referred to even Fai as a child a few chapters ago, it can be assumed sheās including Kurogane in this group. She also describes their relationship as reciprocal: āTo you, those children are no longer just a passing existence. And to those children too, you are someone precious. Your pain is their pain as well.ā
Chapter 131
p.135 - The translation for Lava Lampās reply is accurate here but it might be the tone of Kuroganeās question that makes it feel off. He sees that Lava Lamp is self-conscious about wearing Fei Wangās symbol and says, āItās not like you wore that because you wanted to, right?ā Though it invites confirmation, I would interpret this more as a reassurance than as an actual question. In starting his response with āthoughā (or alternatively ābutā), Lava Lampās agreement is implied. Ie: ā[I didnāt want to wear it] But Iām sure itās not something you want to see.ā
p.152 - Sakura says there will be more times when she will have to hurt people directly (not have people hurt themselves.)
p.153 - When Sakura says she wants to return Syaoranās soul to him, she uses the verb ātorimodosu,ā one of the same words Syaoran used regarding her feathers. If the official translation were consistent, her line here would be, āI want to give it back.ā
Chapter 132
p.157 - Fai uses the verb āikaseruā (č”ććć), which could be translated as either āmake her goā or ālet her go.ā In this context, I would interpret this as Fai asking why they let Sakura go alone, rather than asking why they sent her alone.
None of your thoughts on Faiās continued use of āSakura-chanā are wrong, but I would say itās not the ā-chanā itself that indicates heās laying claim to their relationship, but simply the fact that he hasnāt changed the name he calls her by. I wouldnāt necessarily view Faiās consistent use of -chan and -kun with Sakura and Syaoranās names as an inherent sign of familiarity. Note how in Faiās discussion with Yuuko he distinguishes his nicknames for Kurogane from his more āproperā way of addressing the rest of the group. Itās normal for adults to add these suffixes to the names of children, even ones they donāt know that well, whereas many parents will drop suffixes on the names of their own children as a sign of intimacy. If Fai suddenly started saying āSakuraā instead of āSakura-chanā it would likely have the opposite effect that saying āKuroganeā did. That being said, if he wanted to establish distance between them he could have switched to āSakura-himeā or āThe Princessā or something along those lines. Thankfully when changes of address do happen, the context usually helps make the meaning behind them fairly intuitive (as in the āHello Kuroganeā scene.) Itās just good to keep in mind that there is no solid rulebook for this stuff - it all varies depending on relative status, relationship history, tone, personality, surrounding events, etc.
p.162 - Kuroganeās original line here was, āAre you planning to go to the Princess?ā/āDo you intend to go to the Princess?ā so it doesnāt sound quite as harsh as the translated version.
p.165 - Sakura not knowing where to go was merely implied in the Japanese text - she originally just says that there are no more footprints.
p.169 - Kurogane refers to Sakura saying sheād come back as a āpromise.ā Then he says heāll wait even if waiting is more painful than going with her.
p.171 - It may not have been clear in the translation, but Lava Lamp deliberately switches the name he uses for Sakura here from āSakuraā to āThe Princess.ā
p.172 - Lava Lamp differentiates between pain of the body vs pain of the heart (incidentally using the same word for āheartā that is used to describe Syaoranās heart/soul.) If Fai was injured, the pain in Sakuraās heart would be far worse than any physical pain. This then informs the scene that follows - I assume Sakura knows her physical injuries are worse than Faiās, but her concern for him encompasses both physical and emotional damage.
HONESTLY BLESS SUBARU FOR REALISING THIS IS NOT EXACTLY SOMETHING FAI WOULD WANT OTHER PEOPLE TO SEE
AND BLESS KUROGANE FOR TRYING TO HELP HIM THROUGH IT BY PHYSICALLY KEEPING HIM UP
Because I know this was partially what Kamui told him to do, but itās also the opposite of what Kamui said. He wanted FaiĀ āheld downā, but Kurogane is keeping him up. Kurogane isnāt restraining Fai, heās supporting him, and the difference between the two is 100% goodness.Ā
Also, letās recap:
Helpful people: Kurogane, Subaru
Unhelpful people: the room full of people who just casually watched this whole thing happen
Even less helpful people: Kamui, describing the process for everyone watching
I suppose if you wanted to be kinder to Kamui you could say that heās saying this to Kurogane, as a way of reassuring him, but I am very much less inclined to assume the nice option where Kamui is concerned.Ā
Kamui is SHOCKED that Kurogane would have agreed to this without actually knowing exactly what he was getting into.
But Kurogane is just like DONāT CARE.
IT WASNāT AN ISSUE.Ā
ANY PRICE TO HIMSELF WAS WORTH KEEPING FAI ALIVE.
HE WASNāT GOING TO WAIT ANY LONGER TO FIND OUT THE SPECIFICS
(especially after that extra long speech Subaru god damn)
GUYS HE?
LOVES?
FAI SO MUCH??
OK THAT IS A LOT TO PROCESS AT ONCE.
STARTING AT THE TOP I GUESS.
Kurogane just straight out dismisses whatever Yuuko was thinking (becaue Kurogane) and instead explains that he put all his trust in Mokona.
And weāre building directly off the explanation that both Kuroganeās AND Faiās lives were on the line here. He trusts Mokona IMPLICITLY to the point that he trusted whatever deal Mokona was willing to facilitate to keep Fai alive.
But also. Like.
Kurogane: *explains how he trusts Mokona quite literally with his life without thinking*
Also Kurogane: *still refuses to use her name*
MOKONAāS HAPPY SMILE THOUGH
EVEN AS SHE CRIES THROUGH THE AGONY OF FAIāS TRANSFORMATION
OH MY LORD THIS IS A MOMENTā¢
Meanwhile, Yuuko goes on to explain that if they ever do manage to get Fai both his eyes back, he will have enough magic to just UNDO his own vampirism.
Which is fascinating in its own right, but in terms of characterisation I love the fact that in no part was this part of the deal when Kurogane accepted it. Thereās a possible way out of it now, but Kurogane didnāt know that. Kurogane was willing to accept a joint existence with Fai for the rest of their lives.
No, not just āwillingā. He DID accept that joint life. Until this moment thatās what he thought the deal WAS.
And Iām not entirely convinced they will get that eye back, so maybe thatās a moot point to begin with.
Bonus question: If they did eventually get the eye back... after living as Kuroganeās partner for so long, would Fai want to take his eye back, if it meant he would then outlive Kurogane?
I really really enjoy the side eye Kurogane is shooting Kamui for not sharing this information EARLIER when it was useful.
What I enjoy even more is Yuuko actually sitting down and going āOkay so Iām just going to confirm and deny the relevant pieces of Vampire lore for you nowā, because you KNOW Iāve been thinking about this constantly for a week straight.
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Aka thatās kind of what life does. Unless youāre Fai, now, I suppose.
Iām unsure what the splash text is implying exaaaactly. The disctinction between fate and destiny is a bit loose at the best of times and I was tempted to dismiss it but HEY YOU KNOW WHAT, LETāS DIVE INTO IT ANYWAY. VAGUE DEFINITION TIME: LETāS GO.
Fate is something that has to happen. You donāt necessarily have to be active to make it happen. It can happen to you, but either way, it was always going to happen, because it must.
Destiny is what you were MEANT for, but is not guaranteed. You can be destined for greatness and never achieve it ā which is interesting in the context of fate, because it implies that, if you donāt achieve your destiny, then your destiny was not fated for you.
A Destiny can happen, but Fate must happen.
I would love to see what the original Japanese was talking about here, because Hitsuzen seems closer to the idea of Fate than Destiny, but who knows if they bringing Hitsuzen into it at all?Ā
But with that in mind, the splash text seems to imply that Fai becoming a vampire wasnāt necessarily hitsuzen or fate. It didnāt need to happen.
But achieving vampirism is fulfilling his destiny.
Which sounds like they mean he was always meant to become an immortal undead who drinks blood, but it wasnāt fated to definitely happen. But thatās not it.Ā The wording is a bit hard to follow but it sounds like they arenāt about the vampirism itself, but the cause of it.Ā
But the causes here are many and wild. Especially since, technically, vampirism is the cause of vampirism.Ā Also, technically, anything thatās happened in the last 20 chapters could also be the cause of this. But which of these feels like a DESTINY?
I would point towards the relationship between Fai and Kurogane more than anything else. Fai was going to die, but it was Kuroganeās feelings that forced him into living as a vampire instead.
And if thatās what the text is talking about, then⦠are we saying Kurogane and Fai werenāt fated to fall in love, necessarily.
But being together was their destiny? The greatest intention behind and fulfilment of their lives?
BECAUSE I LIKE THE SOUND OF THAT. LETāS GO WITH THAT ONE.
Meanwhile we have the vampire twins lounging on a chandelier and I think thatās just what vampires do for fun these days.Ā