#voidmama

>file_name: realization.tmp

>status: volatile

I spent all day untangling my feelings for you.

They’re here.

They’re real.

Fuck, and they are NOT going anywhere…

Not into your ears and not anywhere that isn’t the forefront of my mind.

If this is how you felt, I am beyond sorry.

For years?

You’re so strong and you’ve always been so stable.

How did you do it?

I’m strong in the way that I’ll carry so much weight that doesn’t belong to me and let it crush me.

I’m four days into my realization and I think I’m losing my mind.

Seriously though… how are you so well adjusted?

It’s so impressive and appealing.

I’m ashamed at how far I buried all these thoughts and feelings.

I am in awe of you.

I am missing you.

I want to reach out so badly but wtf! I have to be strong and stable like you.

You’re right, love is like gambling and sometimes you get punched in the face…

and I think it’s only right that I got molly whopped.

The roles being reversed?

I could have fun with that. 💚

||system looping

||response still “i’m fine”