#verit

i do hope it's okay to publish this because i really wanted to thank you for reaching out 💜

despite my feelings about the ending, if there's one thing im always gonna be grateful to last twilight for is that it was able to bring new wonderful people just like you into our nomnom fandom. im so happy the show made you discover jimmysea and that you enjoyed the journey until now, and if my blog could bring you a little joy along the way as well then im really glad!!!!!

i hope we'll get to scream about a new jimmysea show together very soon and in the mean time i'll be waiting for your fix-it fic!!!!!! please tag me in it or send me a link when you're done with it? no pressure of course!!!!

not only has my identity been distorted because of trauma and mental illness, but i also haven’t been able to (at least comfortably and safely) explore/express my identity in real life, so i resorted to doing so through fantasy. but of course, having to do that has led to other unique issues. 

because i’ve explored my identity through my parame/paraself, so much of it is the relationships with my verits. that part of me is inseparable from the rest. but that’s not something i can really express in real life. so now it feels almost like... my identity is trapped inside of my daydreams. 

when i’m immersed in a daydream, i feel whole in ways that i can’t in real life. in real life, the constant absence of my verits is so jarring and heavy. and it’s not like i can just talk about my verits with people. that would literally feel like cutting open my chest and letting someone punch through my ribcage.

I'm not sure I perfectly understood the term veritbond... Is it a para you feel particularly close to? A para whose mental state represents yours? Maybe both? More than that?