#venus asks

anyways yeah, my AU doc or whatever u wanna call him. he puts on this front of being detached from everything and everyone around him so that perceived weakness cant be taken advantage of. he tries not to get attached to his teammates or the people working for him because he knows by now the most likely outcome is that it will end in him having to pull himself out of a depressive and grief-filled rut. that doesnt mean hes completely unempathetic though.

he actually does get attached really easily, way easier than he would ever admit. he grew up wanting to be a doctor so he has the urge to help people, yknow? but now that hes. here. he can only do it when its convenient for him, and he feels so awful and ashamed of it, but what else is there to do? (a lot of this specific idea plays into my version of the arena mode player. theyre basically an oc atp LMAO. but cell is worth a whole other post because theyre just. grhgrhrgrg theyre very complicated :) ). but i do also wanna say that just cus doc does care deep down doesnt mean i think its healthy! this isnt a sitcom where its whats deep down that matters! actions mean a lot more than intent yknow? doc is a little shit for trying intentionally to make the people around him feel uncared for just cus hes worried about his ego!!!!

but yeah, so even if he barely shows it or will admit it to himself, doc does care deeply for the rest of sq, but it still kinda sucks. later along when doc, hank, sanford and deimos all feel more like a solid team, doc does start to consider them friends (or more), even if he cant put the word to it. obvi im #1 2bhanker, so he starts falling for hank, for too many reasons to get into right now. just know they love each other so so much in my heart. idc what anyone else says, 2bhank could be just as healthy as people make sanmos. toxic yaoi erm NOT 2DAY!!!! then theres deimos... SIGH.

deimos in my AU is ex-aahw, like in dubious canon, but also phobos' little brother. made as a clone with part of phobos' s3lf to make an adequate heir to nexus. but he wasnt treated like a person, but like a *thing*. he was an asset, he was something phobos owned, and he made sure at every opportunity to let deimos know that. he wanted to get away so bad, so when a mysterious doctor fled, deimos took it as an inspiration to dissent too. deimos went looking for this doctor (the person doc was before he called himself 2bdamned) but never found him. doc changed a lot after dissenting, so deimos didnt recognize him when doc told deimos to join sq (cus whos gonna pass up having phobos' weird little brother on their team?). deimos agrees and eventually gives up on ever finding that doctor (but doc does tell deimos at some point he wasnt just some guy at the agency, he was *that* doctor). and cus doc took him in and offered him a decent living situation, deimos imprinted like a baby duckling. he was a grown man at this point, but he deeply missed what little brotherly/fatherly affection phobos gave him, so he sorta defaulted to seeking it in doc. and because of deimos' past in the agency and how they particularly fucked them two over, doc saw a lot of his younger self in deimos and so got protective over him. adoptive brothers yayyyh. to simplify though, deimos is the annoying younger brother whos always ribbing you somehow and doc is the cold and stern older brother who kinda babys you cus he thinks youll be better off he does something for you. they care for each other a lot, it just shows in unique ways!

THATS ENOUGH ABOUT DEIMOS THOUGH. truthfully i dont have much for sanford in terms of his relationship with doc, but i think theyd be good friends. hank and deimos can be loud and aggravating so i think doc and sanford would enjoy each others company since it can be rather calming. i think they can just sit in a peaceful silence and be content. i do think itd be cute if sanford used to call doc "sir" when it was way more professional, but hes kept the habit and now just calls doc sir for fun. i think doc would like feeling important enough still to sanford that hes kept the nickname