Venus Rivers

while discussing the situation in private and trying to sort some things out i could not while being blocked by a crowd of people, i logged out and went searching for people involved. one of them was @/twczmb, and i want to state right off the bat that im sorry i block evaded, but you addressed me in your post, and so i feel compelled to respond. you dont have to read, i dont expect you to, but there were errors i made and i want to amend them the best i can.

for everyone else, i HIGHLY suggest you look at his post. it talks about the disturbing ideology of @/this-will-kill-us-both/@/youre-going-to-kill-me/@/you-disgust-me, or whatever username its going by now. im not linking the post because i dont want to bother twczmb about this since he said he doesnt want to hear form me, and i will accept that. but please do go read it yourself, it did what i was trying to do much better.

i want to apologize to those who previously saw my posts about my argument with judas about you-disgust-me. i was missing the forest for the trees and being childish about how i was handling the topic. my focus shouldve been on the problem at hand, but i got caught up in, ultimately, a petty scuffle. the posts will remain up, i dont want to hide anything, but besides from me calling out the issue itself, i no longer stand by those posts. one, because, like i said, i was uncoordinated, childish, and vague, and two, because i did not make my stance clear enough.

i want to say, because this situation put me into a hazy and frantic mindset, that my issue with proshipping communities is the sexualization of children and normalization of real-life acts of abuse and harm. i do not care about fictional gore, i do not care about fictional rape, i do not care about fictional acts of violence, abuse, grooming, or any other vile subject matter as long as it is fictional. as long as it is tagged appropriately so minors cannot see it, and it is not condoned in real life, i do not care. the one line i think should never be crossed is involving children, animals, or people/things otherwise unable to consent that can be taken advantage of in real life in those fictional scenarios in a sexual sense. i try my best to be as accepting of other kinks or fetishes as best i can, even if its something not to my tastes, upsetting, or even triggering, but the sexualization of children and animals is my issue with the proshipping community. "ship and let ship" does not work when children run rampant in these spaces and they see content that normalizes abusive behavior to them, and then they are later taken advantage of by the adults in these communities who perpetuate these ideas.

that being said, im sorry again none of this was properly conveyed. when i came to judas about you-disgust-me, i was hostile and on edge because just a few days prior, doghousegates had been called out on twitter, and several people on there made it clear where they stood on the subject. i was exhausted with this mentality in the fandom being so widespread, so i came off blunt and rude. once i was blocked, i had resigned to keep the matter private. it happened in dms, i thought it shouldve stayed private. i was wrong, not with the scuffle with judas, but with you-disgust-me, that shouldve been called out publically. but judas proceeded to vague post about me and i flew off the handle. it purposefully misunderstood my point on several occasions but i let my anger get the better of me. i apologize to the people who saw my posts and to whom i did not make my point clear, but i am not sorry to judas. im sorry i let some weirdo take over the conversation instead of the child groomer, which shouldve been the point.

i sincerely apologize for my mishandling of the situation, for my childish behavior, and my lack of evidence for any of the specifics i was talking about. i apologize for how i came off, sounding like a puritanical anti loser instead of just someone who doesnt want real life children and animals harmed. this situation has, in no vague terms, been extremely taxing on my mental state for months, causing frequent anxiety spikes, distrust and paranoia, and general anti-social behavior, but that is no excuse for how i used my platform, however small it may be.

going forward, unless another big development happens, i will not be talking about this anymore. i will handle these sensitive and serious topics much better in the future, if i talk about them at all. i am clearly not equipped to handle the depth to these topics, and so i will do my best to keep my nose out of the specifics and instead platform the people who know what theyre talking about.

you dont have to forgive me, i know a good few people in this fandom have blocked me, and i dont expect that to change. this is for the people who have stuck around, and for my sake so i can finally put this mess to an end on my part. i have been taking an extended break from the madcom fandom for the past few months, and that will continue until im ready to come back, but hopefully now that ive said what ive needed to say, i can become more active again.