#vent asks

but hey! please please know I am always a place to send anons to vent and stuff. ofc I will listen and help yall best I can as the semi compitent adult I am <3

if i can get a little personal, my mom always did tell me wikipedia was not the free speech and though or it presented itself to be, but i was an idiot and didn't listen. i saw the editings in wikipedia pages and how jewish information was distorted but it wasn't until i read leonard berstein's page that i rlly grasped it. there's no mention of him being jewish. NONE. same with mahler. im a huge classical music fan and to see this represented and distorted like this is disgusting.

even in india the rise in antisemitism is so fucking disgusting and this is a country where there was very little antisemitism as recent as 2022. unfortunately, completely unrelated events are hijacked and made all about how israel is the one responsible for everything bad in the world which is another level of deranged idiocy, but even the barest mention of how some of the most reputed celebrities here are slipping into very casual and very mask off antisemitism here invites absolutely deranged hate.

hoping for the best for you all, and hope all of this ends soon.

yeaaahhhh so this is proving every one of my points in here about what’s been worsening in this ship’s fandom

and like even as the larry level of delusion about carlando starts making you feel nauseous they gotta follow up with the heinous misogyny of viewing the women that Carlos and Lando actually were/are actually dating as disposable and worthless

oh and to “congratulate” themselves like that about Luisinha not being in Lando’s life anymore… Luisinha who these fans literally flooded with hate and death threats to the point that she couldn’t take it anymore !! is so fucking unhinged and cruel

and they wonder why Carlos doesn’t put Rebecca on his own socials when he literally already knows what these clowns are saying about her elsewhere

(as a fun side note I do get some enjoyment that the reality of Carlos voluntarily choosing to leave McLaren well before his one season with Lando was even done (to team up with Charles who Carlos is infinitely more sexually suggestive and flirty and coupley with than Lando) and that Lando and Oscar both signed up to three more years together is making these women-hating shits absolutely rage spiral within their own crazed reality)

again, I know that most of us still shipping carlando are not in the larry delusion group but honestly for me it’s got to take a backseat for a while. Liberty media etc have realized that crazed rpf fans make bank and unlike the yukierre and Danny Ric content the carlando stuff is potentially encouraging harassment of the people involved.

and if anyone wonders why I talk about Lily (Oscar’s long time gf) so often you’ve probably understood by now that it’s because we do NOT want these types of people deciding to make landoscar rpf their next home. they’re going to eventually get bored of carlando not releasing a sex tape or marrying or whatever they’re hoping for from two dudes who don’t even hang outside the F1 season - and I don’t want them breathing anywhere near Lando and Oscar content or the women in their lives. (can’t stop them from rage posting landoscar stuff but that’s at least ignorable lol)

I’ve started getting into hair as a way of self expression years ago and I’ve recently branched out to fashion (and a little bit of make up on some occasions)

Ever since I’ve felt a great euphoria looking into the mirror and realized how miserable I was before I started doing so. Like my dad combed my hair into braids recently and I started crying because it felt so horrible to take a step back into an attire that made me close myself in. And when I looked in the mirror I’ve never felt so ugly and out of place. Fortunately (or unfortunately) my brain has learned to take all those terrible feelings and put them on the baseline in a way you don’t notice until it is finally alleviated from said baseline.

Now I want to dye my hair. I think what I’m doing is quite subtle. I’m not dying my full hair it’s more of a peekaboo style but my sister is telling me “no you can’t think of our dad he’ll be so pissed and won’t let you do things”

But like I’ve been dreaming of dying my hair fake years. I know if I just do it I’ll be so happy like. When I look at myself in the mirror I’m so happy I cut my hair short and I know if I look with my dyed hair I’ll have stars in my eyes. I don’t care what my dad thinks. He’s called me ugly to my face before I think his opinion means nothing. Just annoying my sister cares so much. Not her head that’d be on the metaphorical chopping block.

Hi anon, im so so so sorry this got lost in my inbox.

this is a hard read, but anon the best thing for you to do is get the hell out the second you can. and be true to yourself but put your safety first