What I've learned this year (about myself, mostly):
-unlabeled queer people can face the similar problems that labeled queer people face.
-Even though i dont actually recognise myself in the word 'queer' since I am "mostly straight", i still? Kind of am? Queer? And surprisingly I've used the word in my diary cause there's not many ways to describe why I feel so bad.
-I can relate to a lot more queer people than I would've guessed. Much more many people are varioriented/part of the SAM than I would have thought.
-the word 'varioriented'♡♡♡♡♡ it's so pretty♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
-I don't have to FEEL queer to BE queer. I still feel mostly hetero, my heterosexuality is a bigger part of my identity than my biromanticism.
-aesthetic attraction does not really mean you have romantic feelings towards the person.
-it is now sure that the feelings I have for my friend are in fact romantic, since them calling me a friend made me feel a bit weird. Like, I dont see them that way? As a friend?
-maybe my feelings towards them are not much of a crush anymore, just more like an obsession.
-I don't like men cause I feel sexual attraction towards them and I don't like it when I feel like I'm not in control of my feelings and body.
-I'm very hypocritical cause im overly critical of queer couples and people and get angry for no reason when I view their posts. While still crushing on girls myself.
-Overall the way I've viewed couples and the idea of a relationship, doesn't make sense.
