#understanding adhd

Visited my psychiatrist to officially get my ADHD diagnosed. When I told him about my hyperfixations, how I easily forget things or how I can't maintain a good long term relationship, he laughed at me and told that this has nothing to with ADHD. And that I may have attributed a few traits of ADHD bcoz of my lack of focus and my fidgetting habits. He never made a detailed evaluation, the session ended in less than 30 mins. He just prescribed me a medication without any evaluation bcoz it wouldn't have much of a side effect either way.

When I came out of the session my parents started scolding me because my behavior had nothing to do with ADHD and that I'm just lazy and adamant. People might care about me but I feel like they'll never understand what I'm going through.

Basically also a shit person. Who talks shit about myself. On social media.

My anxiety and depression come in the night time.

My thoughts tend to scramble. I ramble. I forget my thought processes. In the middle of a thought. Or my shiny brain will trail off. Trail. Trail mix. Trail mix has granola. Granola is yummy. But it can have nuts. I’m allergic to nuts. Not peanuts. They’re roots. Also are classified as legumes. Which are beans in case you were confused. I’m confused at why I’m writing this. I guess because I’ve never written out my trail of thought before. This is a first. What do they call this type of writing?

*closes out for a quick google search*

Stream of consciousness. I’m also writing this from my phone. So I can’t write with bold and italicized. Maybe I can but I don’t know how. Does anyone know? I don’t. You’d think at 24 I’d be tech savvy. But I’m far from that. I’m pretty shit with social media. I’m shit at a lot of things. And I’ll admit that. Because I’m not afraid to put myself out there more and let you get to know me. But probably no one would read this. Because it’s jumbled and a mess. I have a love/hate relationship with med vacations on the weekend.

Do you think ADHDers have a specific way of texting? I want to find out.

Reblog this and bolden the statements that you do or would like it if you were allowed to do.

- Texting in long paragraphs because of your ranting habits.

- Alternatively, texting short messages but many at once to complete the thing you were saying.

- Talking about many topics at once. Separated by brackets or other ways.

- Quickly switching from topic to topic even when they aren't connected.

- Being able to keep up if someone does the above with you.

- Making frequent typos.

- Loving sending gifs/reaction pics or anything visual.