#turning 17

Happy Birthday to Hoon!

Okay, so tomorrow is May 15th (in my timezone ofc) and that means I'm uploading this artwork early, but I'd like to share this with you all during my final four hours of being 16! (I'm having my 17th birthday 🤭)

Happy 17th birthday to me

Bittersweet 17

11:55 PM

The clock is ticking I realize.

Counting down the moments,

Until the end of my childhood.

Do I want to say goodbye,

To sweet sweet 16?

Is it wrong to feel excited but also terrified?

11:56 PM

I feel the excitement of growing up,

Of tasting the freedom,

That comes with adulthood.

Of being one step closer,

To turning my dreams into my reality.

Of falling in love,

With the boy whose name is written next to mine.

11:57 PM

But there’s the terrifying idea,

Of saying goodbye to the little girl in the photographs,

The little girl I can never be again.

Of going out into the world,

All on my own.

Of having to make my own decisions,

Be my own judge.

11:58 PM

They always say,

“You’re so mature for your age,”

But is that supposed to be a compliment?

I didn’t mean to grow up fast,

To see the world in the eyes of someone older.

I am only going to be 17.

Still learning how to be soft,

How to be angry,

How to be strong without hiding. 

11:59 PM

If everyday was a page,

Then I have 365 left,

Before this new chapter ends.

But am I ready to close the 16th chapter in the first place?

Am I ready to move onto chapter 17?

12:00 AM

The year-long countdown has begun,

Until I have my 18 candles.

So I guess I need to say goodbye to sweet 16,

And say hello bittersweet 17.

Don't get me wrong, I'm really excited to finally be 17 but I am a bit sad for saying goodbye to sweet 16 and I feel so old now. And I think I'm in my poetry era? Cause this is the 3rd poem I've posted in the past month.