#tryingtoconcieve

Lh levels were low this morning. I’m guessing I missed my peak which would prob been yesterday afternoon as my test was .4 in the evening and .1 this morning. But we will see when I test again this evening.

Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me, fool me three times IM STUPID!!! Not happening, not today!

What the heck is my deal? I’ll explain all of that in an upcoming post!

Its been almost 3 years and we still counting,when we get turn. Ini bukan Waktu yang sebentar untuk kami menunggu. Setidak nya bagi setiap yang berharap satu hari rasa nya seperti satu bulan lamanya. Dan kami masih setia menunggu giliran dari sang Maha Kuasa agar berkenan memberikan ridha Nya,agar lekas menurunkan kehendak Nya. Kadang kami lelah baik berharap maupun meminta,tidak satu ato dua kali kami kehilangan keyakinan terutama pada diri kami sendiri tapi bayangan itu,angan-angan itu,impian untuk memeluk seorang putra atau putri,bayi kami sendiri membuat hati kami bersinar keinginanpun menguat kembali dan entah bagaimana kami mencoba lagi,dan lagi dan lagi.. Lalu berhenti lagi dan lagi dan lagi.. Dan mencoba lagi dan lagi dan lagi.. Keinginan ini tertanam dan meski tak kami pupuk dan sirami tapi dia terus tumbuh di dalam hati kami. Dan akan selalu ada sepanjang hidup kami. Pada akhir nya kami menemukan diri kami hanya berjuang untuk bersyukur bukan lagi mengupayakan agar pembuahan terjadi. Segala lelah dan sedih ini kami hapus dengan rasa syukur. Ya,kepada sang Pencipta. Kepada satu-satunya yang dapat membuat kemungkinan ini terjadi. Kepada satu-satunya yang mampu menganugerahkan keajaiban kecil dalam hidup kami. Kepada-Mu ya Rabbi. Hanya kepada-Mu

February 13th I got home from grocery shopping and I just had a feeling that I needed to take a pregnancy test. It was positive immediately. I was so excited but of course nervous to tell my parents as I was 18 years old. I told my mom the same day and she cried saying she was disappointed in me and that she wanted better for me. It was a knife to the heart. Not what you want to hear from your mom. I was even more nervous to tell my dad after getting my mom's response. I eventually worked up the courage to tell my dad on February 19th, my 19th birthday. He was so happy. He instantly hugged me and was so excited to be a grandpa. The next day I had a little spotting and side pain but was told not to worry because it's normal in the beginning of pregnancy. The days following that I had started to bleed more and have episodes of excruciating pain in my left abdomen. On February 26th, it was confirmed that I was miscarrying. It was the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. I was heartbroken. It's been a rocky roller coaster ever since. My boyfriend, of 4.5 years, and I have been trying to conceive ever since.

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Yes it's #jealousy don't #judge me. Life #tryingtoconcieve can be #awful (at City of Chico)