#trinit

"We're just keeping it casual, right?" Garcia asks from behind closing doors, hands crossed and brows wrinkled. Because why would they not be. Except for all those moments, all those gestures and words and rumbling groans of desire Garcia has given to Trinity. All those reasons for why the Omega's wolf is gnashing as it whimpers, folding into itself in its pain.

Trinity had been careful this time. Had agreed on casual distance the way a deer on a midnight road agrees with an incoming car, then just stares at the impending crash. Just like a deer, Trinity had been too distracted with the bright lights of Garcia's eyes as they would sweep through her skin, pointedly staring like headlights as their two bodies closed on each other. Fuck. It is always the same shit with Trinity. She should have learned by now. No one would ever love her if they could not fuck her. No one, in fact, would ever love her outside of fucking her. She knew this. She is supposed to know it. Why did she let herself forget? Once again, her heart is just roadkill perched on a highway median, heart emptying as she fades. 

"For sure," she weakly answers back. She hopes Garcia could not hear the hurt between the words. Trinity blinks away the cold numbness that returns deep in her bones as she begins moving back towards the bedlam that awaits her inside the ED. She is used to the feeling. The not-feeling rather, the detachment from her bodily experience as her surroundings fade to a restless fog. Her movement is automatic, words coming out of her mouth with a delay only she has to struggle through. Thankfully, no one seems to notice.

Rules: Tag 20 people that you want to get to know

Tagged By: @azuphere​ ( XD LOL you wanna know even more about me?!?!)

Nickname: Um….Family? Friends? Or internet? Internet would be TriniT, Trin, Cassie, Cassiopeia, and ChuChu. Friends (usually older ones) call me Ans or Minion. Family call me little/small B, BB, monster, or cookie monster.   

Gender: Female

Height: 5′1…5′2? ( :P ) Haven’t measured my height in years but I’m sure I haven’t grown much or any at all.  

Fave colour: Actually, this sorta depends on my mood but most of the time it’s black, (pearl) red, grey/silver…maybe dark purple, navy blue?

Time right now: Um….NOT a time in which I should be awake. Cuz normal people are going to be waking up at this time soon for work. (I’ll probably post this at a better time)

Average hours of sleep: 3-4 hours of what I call sleep, which is done at night. 4-6 hours of what I call a nap in the afternoon.  

Lucky number: 5! More of 55555, but 5 is easier to manage. ( XD )

Last thing googled: Well, I use like a million devices at a time but the last thing I Googled on this laptop browser would be……..How to deal with insomnia. (It literally told me to get out of bed and to do something until I’m tired such as go on the internet or social media. Which is why I’m doing this at such an hour and my weird way of sleeping mentioned above~!)

Fictional character I would like as a younger sibling: Haven’t read any real books in such a long time….how about from an anime?…Not sure… but I do want an older brother!

Blankets I sleep with: Technically~ one blanket, but I’m surrounded by another two. Since I can’t sleep at night, I sleep in different areas like a sofa so I have a set of pillows and blankets everywhere. In total, I actually use like 4 different blankets.

Fave bands/artists: I honestly listen to any song as long as the melody is to my liking and if the lyrics are good. (These are like 1/10 people I listen to that I guess I sorta search up and stuff.) So for Japanese/Korean I listen to Tohoshinki, DBSK, JYJ, AKB48, Mizuki Nana, Do as Infinity, etc. Chinese/Mandarin songs I listen to Show Luo, Jacky Xue, JJ Lin, GEM,etc. And English songs, anything with good melody and lyrics….. Any recommendations?

Dream trip: Around the world! More specific? Um….Europe and Asia. MORE SPECIFIC?!?!  Japan and Paris are a must. But yeah, around the world would be best and if not, at least Europe and Japan.

What I’m wearing right now: Pajamas! With my three rings and bracelet~     

How many blogs I follow: Only 29

What I post about: Dan and Phil, DBSK, poetry/quotes, things that amuse me and that I find interesting at the moment, maybe my fanfics (probably not),etc.                                                                                                                                 Pick a word that begins with the first letter of your real name and ends with the first letter of your url:                                                                          apologetic aquatic artistic angelic allergic acidic acrylic……                                (LOL apologetic aquatic artistic angel is allergic to acidic acrylic)  

Do you get asks on a daily basis: LOL nope! I’m not really sure if I would want to. Like I would but I’m not on Tumblr everyday, all day. But I’ve only been on Tumblr for a few months and (yay~!) I got a few asks.

Why did you choose your URL: So that no one standing over my shoulder would be able to find me if they saw me on my tumblr. LOL thats like ⅓ of my reason. I’ve always loved anything to do with Japan since the day I believe I’ve started existing, hence the japanese name. It actually means “faithful kiss” in Japanese and it’s also not translatable on google translate. I always used to read stories and watch dramas and my favourite ones  always starts off with these “accidental kisses.” I actually didn’t really give this name much thought as I first used it to upload my fanfic online so I had to make an account. Although I use ChuujitsuKissu, most people just call me TriniT when i’m online.

Who I tag: um….. @dongbangsexual, @back-to-five @yunjaesweetlove @tohofuckingshinki                                                                                                  

This part was daunting as it had been a while since I had done a three-hour written exam. It helped that I was able to do a mock in the run-up to it and get the feedback that I was tackling the questions along the right lines. I found, in fact, that I was able to answer all the questions in about two and a half hours and then have time to read back over it. I noticed too that the old advice of reading all the questions before your start still holds. Your brain works away in the background on the things that are not immediately familiar and by the time you get to them you find that you have come up with something.

What helped with the first part of the exam was that I had done that final lexis session fairly recently and really poured over the feedback to the sample questions there, to make sure I understood what was expected. I'd recommend going back over those notes very carefully to make sure you are clear on the terminology. Then I went through all the past papers that were put up on Blackboard and looked up any term that was unfamiliar and made notes for myself on those topics. The only area I didn't feel comfortable with when the exam came around was punctuation. There was a question on this, but I was able to leave that one out. That meant I had to answer all the others though. There were one or two that I didn't see the answer straight off, but had to work my way towards it as I was writing. This section took me a bit more than a third of the time.

The second part worried me because I know that I am good at grasping the practical implications of things and implementing them, but not so good at keeping a hold of the names of who originally proposed what and when. Simon, who was doing it with me, had memorised quotations that he was going to use. My strategy was to go through the methodologies that I was most likely to mention, the ones that most influence my approach to teaching, and made use I had a name and a year for each one. That way I knew that whatever question I answered I was going to have something to say because I was going to be talking about Holec's 1981 proposals about learner autonomy and a few others. I think that the way to go with these exams is to make them open book. Memorisation is much less of an indicator of expertise than being able to select and make appropriate use of the right reference, especially when all the information is available to you all the time.

The third part was the one I was most relaxed about. I work a lot on issues of professional development and I knew I was probably going to have faced several of the issues they mentioned and have had to wrestle with solutions for them. It also helped me that I was told they like you to have your own opinion. I'm never short of those and if I had felt I had to toe the line I would have been much more uncomfortable with it.

After answering all these I had time to read over everything and catch and correct all my typos. My grandfather's exam advice rang in my ears, "be calm, cool, clear and concise, read questions and answer over twice". At the end of the three hours my hand ached, and took a couple of hours to get back to normal, but I was happy that I had acquitted myself well, I did it to, at least, the same standard as the mock, which I had been told was a solid pass. Just four more weeks to wait and see how I actually got on.