pre-transition + icemav - pete mitchell
maverick is exhausted. sitting with a cold drink in his hands, ice freezes the soft layer of skin covering his shaking fingers.
āit canāt be.ā he says to himself, mind drifting to his weekend.
they were all playing some stupid board game and maverick went straight for the male character, forcing goose to be the woman. itās as itās always been. his best friend didnāt push back, but instead gently chuckled, āhe suits you, mav. maybe youāre destined to be a guy.ā
the rest of the time, the group all referred to maverick as a man. they were joking, of course, poking fun at āmotherā goose in equal measure. but, it made mavās heart leap into his chest. itās the same feeling he gets every time ice calls his name.
maverickās elbows sit upon the sticky bar table, his shoulders hunched, chest minimized. itās not a behavior heās picked up on, but goose and ice have.
so, when he spotted maverick drowning in his own thoughts, completely curled over; he easily guessed what was on his mind.
āmav?ā iceās statement was far too quiet for maverickās hazy mind to pick up on. instead, he slid his hand over maverickās trembling.
maverickās eyes snapped to iceās, his fingers flexing under his gentle yet unwavering touch.
āice?ā he scans his blonde counterpartās expression, searching for understanding.
āhey, man. you look really⦠off.ā
man. every time ice talks to him, without fail, he uses some form of masc terminology; whether it be bro, dude, or man - he always makes a concerted effort to do so.
and maverickās only just noticing.
āoh, no, just thinking. iām fine.ā
ice doesnāt buy it. he calls out maverickās bullshit constantly, in the air and when heās being a little shit. but this is different. far, far different. that troubled look in his eyes is something heās only seen once before, and that was when maverick got so wasted he spoke about his father.
āmitchell, youāre a piss poor liar.ā
he winces. sometimes, he forgets people genuinely understand and watch for his emotions.
āi canāt⦠i canāt talk about it with you, dude- i think, i think iām fucked. fucked up. like, thereās something so goddamn wrong about me, i donāt know how to explain this without sounding fucking insane.ā
iceās fingers lace between mavās. heās never heard mitchell so shaken, his own heart is racing.
ābreathe, mitchell. you can talk to me, i promise i wonāt judge. no matter what you think it is thatās so wrong.ā
āno, tom, you donāt understand. i could get fucking dishonorably discharged. i canāt- oh my god, i⦠what kind of womanā¦ā
āmaverick. baby, please, breathe.ā
the endearment slips out before he can stop it. but lord, it doesnāt matter. not when maverickās tears have escaped the confines of his eyes and dripped down his many-size too large t-shirt.
his watercolor eyes evade iceās as the words spill from his lips, his tone pure terror.
āwhat kind of woman wants to be a man?ā
itās been like a year since iāve written ANYTHING but jesus christ itās been forever since iāve hyper fixated like this AAHSJDOCPDKSKDLDL
i mean i now go to flight school because of these stupid movies and maverick is my biggest kin
anyways iām probably going to write multiple parts of this even though there is no plan and the writing is poor quality but idc transmav + icemav makes me tweak