#transman problems

I've been really torn about this with both sides bullying me to do one or the other. Ultimately I've opted to hire a vocal coach who can teach me to sing in my new register. I don't so much miss my old voice, as I miss singing and sounding good doing it. Anyone else miss their dead voice sometimes?

If someone tells you not to ask things like that or tells you it’s rude, apologize. Sure, maybe you didn’t mean to hurt anyone. But it doesn’t change the fact that you did. If you accidentally stepped on someone’s toe, you would (hopefully) apologize and see if they were okay. The same principle applies if you accidentally offend someone. Apologize and listen to them; don’t get defensive and act like they hurt you.

I fucking hate body and I want to throw myself off of the nearest parking garage.

Me, a trans person from Poland: w...wow. This seems so unreal....wow. 

PRE T: ........Remember when you would casually indulge the thought of body hair and think, "Yeah man, I'd rock the shit outta some chest hair! Gimme all the chest hair!" which evolved into, "Ahhh you aren't a real man if you don't have some giant PUFFS of armpit hair Gimme it all!" and playfully adding that "If you get back hair that'd be even cooler!" Then, you get on T. Every new hair is tallied, carefully groomed, and positively welcome to the body it sprouted from. You embrace the random hairs that pop up, and even find it as "another step, in my transition." Cute. You know what else is cute? When your body decided to escalate that playful idea and suddenly, the hairs on your body - SPECIFICALLY your BACK/CHEST are spreading like wild fire and you break out EVERYWHERE with that cystic acne and you are scrambling to find every remedy to clear that shit up and then.... it calms down. You begin to embrace the fact that you may have more hair than your original day dream consisted of, but you wouldn't change anything. PLOT TWIST: Your T dose is increased, and the HAIR you once YEARNED for, and NOW acquire, wants to RAISE FROM THE DEAD like its Billy FUCKIN Mays like, "BUT WAIT! THERE'S MORE!" and that sweater you once joked of, is becoming your reality.... and you just grow comfortably numb and accept that your doppelgänger is now Sasquatch because THAT IS WHAT YOU WANTED! But you can't say shit like, "this is not okay," cause someone always has something to say like, "THIS IS WHAT YOU WANTED! You can't get mad!" but you kindly smile and nod but in your head you say, "remember that one time you lost your virginity and the dude came in 5 seconds and his dick was 4"? I believe you said, "this is not okay," and we don't throw shade like, "THIS IS WHAT YOU WANTED!" but, here we are supporting you and your whoreish ways, Jessica! " Fuuuuuck! Transman problems!