#enby problems

my GOD I need an enby pin right NOW

But are you hysterical bitch nonbinary or violent evil nonbinary?

Being enby is so weird because you have the same yearning that most trans people have to have had a childhood that matched your gender, but the childhood that matches your gender isn't even one our culture even has a concept of. Like, I yearn to have just been a kid in a way that had nothing to do with being a boy or a girl, to have been a cute genderless child as opposed to being something that was trained to be bred. There's almost a model for what a genderless childhood that I'll never have had looks like with enby middle schoolers with very accepting families, and I do wish I got to have that, but it's still not what I really want which is to have been recognized as genderless from birth. And there's nothing as easily expressable as having wanted to been just a boy or a girl.

the word 'bean' being used to describe people is going to be the death of me I swear to the universe. "nonbinary bean" I never want to hear that godawful phrase again in my life, it feels so infantilising. Power to you if you like it but someone on Reddit just suggested using "good bean" in place of "good boy/girl" during sex and I honest-to-fuck hissed like an angry cat at the thought. If someone called me a good bean during sex I'd get up and leave and immediately take a fast train to the nearest abbey to see if they were looking for new nuns to take a vow of chastity.