Day 83
I need bigger underwear.
The bean has been visibly growing for a while now. Over the last few weeks or so, it got incredibly sensitive. Nothing compares to the feeling of fabric being pulled over it, when it's a bit far out of it's little house.
I would like to say "No-one prepared me for this!" but it's just an impossible thing to actually explain how it feels.
You know when your leg falls asleep and it get all tingly? Imagine that but downsized. Same amount of tingles, smaller space. And make it faster. All this on a surface area of a few millimetres.
I don't know if anyone will read this in their preparation for their transition. But if they are, they should know that it's nothing like you expected. It's your expectations made into a smoothie with a bit of chaos in there. It's amazing but you're not quite sure if your even able to taste any of the original ingredients.
It's also not a constant change. Sometimes you notice three different things in one day, then nothing exciting for a month. And sometimes people around you will notice things before you do. It's weird. But not in a bad way.
btw my body is still shivering because I accidentally touched the bean with my panties as I was putting them on 🥲 Feeling how different my body is nice, but not like that... I could do without brutal overstimulation.
an appropriate meme:
