By: Buck Angel

Published: Jul 18, 2023

I wish I never had to say this. But today I feel an urgency to tell the truth. Thirty one years ago I decided to transition from female to male. That means I used medical procedures to alter the look of my body. My physical appearance. This helped me in so many ways that I do not think I could even articulate. But I do think you know what I mean.

My biology never changed.

Now I look like a man. This is what a Transsexual man is. A female who feels like she wants to be a male. Gender dysphoria. A very uncomfortable feeling when the world views you as a woman when you want them to view you as a man. It’s all physical to help the mental. This helps the brain align in some way that make me comfortable to walk outside, go to the grocery store or work out at the gym. The dysphoria, that feeling that you want to be or look like man and you know you don’t, has pretty much gone away. The feeing of freedom. What I have sought after for as long as I could remember.

My biology never changed.

Not wanting to fool you, though I think some people think that. What I am trying to do is blend in, not makes waves. Just walk the street without seeing that look in your eye. You know the one.

It helps us both walk the world as I like to say coexisting. I want nothing from you and you want nothing from me. This is a transsexual. Coexist. Blend it. Make no problems. In fact make friends with the people you want to be like.

Why am I writing this? I feel a need to scream at the world. I am a transsexual man not a man. I want to be a man I want to look like a man BUT it has been such a long long time that I have wanted to scream it to the world. My biology is important it always has been, but it is personal or was, and now it needs to be at the front, There were never any problems with you before , now you hate me. It is not why I transitioned. I do not want you to hate me I only want to exist with you. I never want to take. It has always been that way.

Something happened to a space that changed my life for the better.Now it’s a competition. Nothing I know. Everything I am not. Anger. Hostility. Revenge. Hate. What is this? The opportunities are there.

I will never be a man but I will always be a Transsexual man. The difference is very important for both of us. It is how I made friends with you. My honesty. You loved my honesty. You said “It is so cool you used to be a woman”. So many of you said that to me.

This is my coexistence with you. All I want. Nothing more nothing less. I want to earn my place and cherish the rewards. The rewards of living together.

Trans experience is rooted in the reality and immutability of biology. Denying biological reality is denying trans reality.

For reference, India Willoughby is a transwoman, and therefore male.