#trainingmyself

I have to admit it, I hate it when I'm not aware of things that involved in my life.

I hate it that I’m in the shady zone when things are moving without me knowing of. It makes me feel like I'm not in control or I cannot foresee what’s coming, cannot control the worst situation. 

I hate it.

I think I was bad today throwing words to that friend of mine because I was not updated with what I’m supposed to be updated. I don’t feel like it’s my fault. But I do feel bad when I realize what I care about is not my friend anymore. I care about my things.

I felt terrible. I felt bad. Really really bad.

How to really love someone in the right way that not hurts us?