#tqa

this may sound like a weird question and maybe this fall more in "we need to talk about these people" more than an actual question in itself but i need to understand  just how  usual it is for queer activist who are trans / n-b to also be transphobic / n-b phobic?

for bit of context though, i used to be friends / mutuals on twt with  people who were all trans / n-b (though there were also others who weren't and had the same attitude) to some extent and noticed that a lot of their opinion on our issues were... highly transphobic. by that i mean they'd say they "hate" afab n-b who still call themselves women or that have links to womanhood or dress fem because "what could they even be dysphoric about" and just saying a lot of "fuck non binary people" and one of them which striked me hard said he was glad he realized he was trans binary and not non binary because "ew" which 💀 yeah i don't even have the words for that.

i remember seeing so many "takes" of theirs with lots of underlying transphobia (and ig in a way misogyny due to the fact it's always targeted to anyone afab?) and all linked to their hate towards non binary afab (most of these people also are afab which is even more worrying imo)

and the worst is that these are  opinions shared by a lot of other people with a pretty "big" voice and following in the lgbt activism online  (this was on the french side of it but i have seen so many people with these type of opinions and harmful rhetoric across the community)

i'm just wondering if anyone has had this experience and how the hell did we come from sharing our experiences and fighting for our rights and identity to be recognized,,,, to hating on and blaming  people literally just living their life and being comfortable with themselves for being "the reason" we're not taken seriously.“ -Anonymous user

I think that a lot of, if not most, trans and non-binary have some level of internalized transphobia and enbyphobia/exorsexism just from living in a transphobic/enbyphobic/exorsexist society.

The specific hatred of non-binary people who were AFAB is something that I’ve been seeing a lot recently which I have found very concerning. The specific hatred of non-binary people who were AFAB and still have some connection to womanhood and/or femininity seems to have it’s roots in transmedicalism, it sounds basically identical to the way people would describe “transtrenders” when that was the big concern.

Something that I’ve also seen a lot of is accusations the non-binary people who were AFAB weaponize their femininity the same way cis women do. I find this very worrying because it typically ends up lumping non-binary people who were AFAB along with cis women and treating those two groups as the same. I imagine this is something that does happen at times, but it’s not something that I’ve ever seen personally. I also find it concerning that people are reducing it to a problem with AGAB, when in my experience it’s really not. The weaponization of femininity isn’t something that I only see coming from people who were AFAB, it’s something I see coming specifically from white people who are perceived as women or feminine. My experience might be affected by being from the USA, where we have a history with white womanhood being used as a weapon, so people from other cultures may see it very differently. But when people reduce it to just an “AFAB thing” it feels like an attempt to take a real issue and twisting it to attack non-binary people who don’t sufficiently perform hatred of their AGAB.

Unfortunately it feels like this is just the newest target of exclusionists and infighting. When I first joined tumblr it was asexuals who were the target, for awhile it was non-binary people as a whole... It seems like there’s always some group getting targeted in many online queer spaces. It’s really depressing to see, especially when it starts to feel like a neverending cycle. If it’s any consolation I don’t see it very often in offline queer spaces (although I have had to stay away from most of those spaces for a couple years due to health issues) In online spaces I think that there are a lot of people who find some comfort in hurting other vulnerable people, it makes them feel like they have some sort of power and control. It’s really horrible, but when I’ve been part of a targeted group I have found some comfort in trying to keep in mind that these are just people who are looking for any acceptable target. It’s really not about you, or any non-binary person who was AFAB, it’s just about finding someone socially acceptable to hurt. And you will be able to find people and groups that aren’t like that, usually the bullies are just the loudest.

Honestly my experience throughout all this (including during the things happening in early 2010’s tumblr) is that non-binary people are overwhelmingly treated as “basically women” by a lot of the queer and trans community. Afab enbies are treated as “bascially cis women” and when people actually remember that amab enbies exist they often treat them as “basically trans women" and if AMAB enbies are "too masculine" they get shunned and treated like cis men infiltrating the trans community. There’s been a slight expansion to include some AFAB enbies under the transmasc label, but I’ve still been continuously bothered by how some people talk about non-binary people in a very binary way. We still get sorted into “transmasc” or “transfem” based off our agab, which is a huge problem for unaligned enbies like myself. 

Recently I’ve see a lot more posts talking about the ways enbies can cause lateral aggression against other trans people, but it's usually phrased as if we have significant privilege over other trans people or that we don't really experience transphobia. And almost no one openly acknowledges that we also face unique forms of bigotry and oppression. They’ll mention that enbyphobia/exorsexism exists, but there’s little to no discussion of what that actually entails and it sometimes gets treated as “transphobia lite”

Also a lot of people are using the fact that there are bigoted non-binary people to paint non-binary people (especially afab enbies to be honest) as a whole as dangerous of privileged. Which I find really concerning, especially with how it mirrors the way that trans men and transmascs have been treated. I don’t want history to repeat itself but with non-binary people (or any group) being the next acceptable target.

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Jaehyun’s eyes immediately follow the dip of your back, raking over your sleeping form as he steps into the dark bedroom.

Practice had run later than usual today and you'd fallen asleep watching random videos on YouTube before feeling your eyes growing heavier and heavier as the hours ticked by, giving up on waiting for your boyfriend as you finally crawled under the covers. Although he'd usually be too tired once he got home, the way your bare thighs gleamed beneath the moonlight that filtered through the half-opened curtains had Jaehyun’s fingers reaching for you.

He hesitated when he got to the edge of the bed, staring down at your peaceful self as you laid on the bed. For a moment, he wonders if he should just go take a cold shower but all he can think of is how you'd drunkenly joked one night last week that you'd love to be awakened in a very unconventional way–a conversation that had started because Jaehyun had been reminiscing the morning when you'd woken him up with your mouth wrapped around his hardening length.

“I just think such morning favours should be returned,” you'd laughed, eyes twinkling with mischief as you had sipped the wine.

Your words echoing in his mind, he reaches slowly for the sheets that were tangled around your hardly covered body. Pulling the duvet away from your legs, Jaehyun sucks in a breath when he notices that you're not wearing any underwear.

Slowly, he crawls on top of you and trails his hand on the inside of your thighs. Being a deep sleeper, you don't stir even as he lightly traces his fingertips over the soft flesh. When he finally reaches in between your legs, Jaehyun can't help the startled sound he involuntarily lets out when he realises that you're slightly wet.

Slipping his finger in easily, your walls immediately clench around the digit and your boyfriend's eyes dart to your face, half-amused and half-surprised at how you're still sleeping soundly. Lowering his weight over your back, he settles more comfortably as he traces slow circles around the small bundle of nerves. He watches as your eyebrows furrow, a small noise sounding at the back of your throat as he kept teasing your clit.  

Once you seemed slick enough, Jaehyun retrieved his finger that was glistening in the dark with your arousal and pulled out his erection that was painfully straining against his sweatpants.  

There was something so incredibly sexy about this, about the way he was slowly pushing himself into your dripping pussy and Jaehyun wonders if you'd been as excited for him to wake up on that morning as he was waiting right now. He thrusts himself all the way in, groaning softly into your neck as he feels your warmth envelop him before slowly drawing back again. His hand slips beneath your shirt then, gripping your hips tighter as he began moving and your eyes flutter open, a loud moan escaping your lips.

Your fingers immediately clutch the sheets beneath you, his name a soft drowsy murmur on your tongue as you come to your senses, realising with a growing arousal what was happening as your boyfriend fucks the sleep out of you, quite literally. Breath growing shorter as he goes rougher, whines of his name fall from your mouth as your walls squeeze around his length.

Jaehyun hardly notices that you've fully waken up now, entirely too consumed by the delicious and addicting feeling of your pussy as he thrusts harder and you manage to push your own hips back into him, wanting to be filled up by him completely as he finally returned your sweet morning favour.

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Doyoung never was easy in the bedroom, enjoying the way you squirmed and whimpered beneath him. Always one to make you beg and cry for him, he loved fucking you until you were a babbling mess of broken words.

It had been more than an hour since you'd stopped him from reaching for the condom, cheeks flushed and voice a husky desperate whisper as you asked him to go raw. You didn't know if it was the quarantine or if the horniness had gotten to your head but all you knew was that you were on the pill and that you wanted to feel him completely, wanted him to fuck you until you couldn't walk.

Not like either of you had anywhere to be going, anyway.

“Oh god,” you moaned, tears streaking down your cheeks as he rammed into you for the nth time. Your body was flushed all over, legs shaking on the bed while Doyoung hovered over you and held himself up with his hands on either side of your head. The sheets beneath you were absolutely ruined, a drenched and stained witness to all the previous orgasms that he had given you. He'd been more merciless than usual, wanting you completely wet and slick for his bare length as he fucked you with his fingers first, then the vibrator and even spanking you until you'd cum multiple times.

“How are you still so tight and wet?” Doyoung groaned aloud, thrusting slowly into you as you whined, fingernails digging into his back almost painfully hard in an attempt to go faster. It wasn't even midnight yet but your body was already exhausted, thighs sore as he drew out every time that he was fucking into you—slamming into you a few times before slowing to gentle strokes and pulling out almost completely until your body loosened with the slow teasing, bottoming out completely before almost breaking you in half as he fucked you hard.

“Look at that,” you heard him grunt and your eyes immediately lowered to where he was pushing into you, a broken whimper leaving your swollen lips as you saw how his cock was glistening with both your fluids. Thick white cum coated the base, more of it spilling from your abused hole down to the sheets and you knew that your pitiful mewls weren't even audible over the noisy squelching of your wet walls, the loud smacking of slick skin as his balls slapped against you each time.

“Look how fucking filthy you are,” Doyoung growled, making your stomach tighten and arousal grow at his words. “Taking all of me, letting me fill you up with all my cum. You're just a slut for my cock, aren't you?”

Toes curling, you arch off the bed as a scream broke out of you when yet another orgasm rips through your body until your vision was just blinding white. You clutched the sheets tightly in your fists in an attempt to hold on as Doyoung didn’t slow down even through your climax, slamming into you repeatedly and making you cry from oversensitivity. Forcing your walls to clench around his length then, you clamped down on him like a vice and felt him burst again, spilling his hot seed into you.

smutty drabbles/scenarios of nct + wayv members during quarantine

taeil | johnny | taeyong | doyoung | jaehyun | jungwoo | yuta | mark | haechan | jeno | jaemin | renjun | kun | winwin | ten | lucas | xiaojun | hendery | yangyang 

- this is tqa masterlist - this post will be regularly updated - daily updates - some may be more suggestive than smutty - started: 13.08.2020