Im so mad
Im not a good person. But I am not a bad person. Why did you rape me? I trusted you. I loved you. I cared for you. You broke that for a minute of self service. With no remorse, it is only me left with all these emotions now. I am dealing with these alone. I have no one to talk to. I am trapped. How can I hurt others by telling them what happened? How could you hurt me by doing what you did. That is not love. That is fear, hatred, desperation that you violated me with. And now I am alone with my feelings even years later. I still try to wrap my head around what you did. I am so mad. I am so hurt. I did not deserve this. I absofuckinglutely hate you. and I am trying to forgive you at the same time for leaving me with all this despair.
