#thtb

aw cute! evil 2 make me choose a top 5 tho like making me choose favorites from amongst my children…i will do it anyway <3

1. the hand that feeds

canon-compliant dorlene <3 i feel like this fic will always be my #1 favorite bc i loved creating the characters & writing their story & especially their ending helped to really encapsulate like…my own philosophy towards life & death etc

2. alice, look at me

canon-compliant alicissa i love tragic lesbians…i just think this fic has some of my best writing tbh. v proud of the “this is how life is” paragraphs <3

3. the heart that bleeds

canon-compliant emmary…technically a companion piece 2 thtf. loved writing this so much loved making up a story & personality for emmeline love tragedy & gender fuckery & lesbian sex <3

4. heroes in the seaweed

canon-compliant marylene…are we sensing the pattern here…not quite as tragic as the others but i really enjoyed focusing on mary in this fic!! imagining the perspective of a muggleborn growing up in a world where she never fits in etc…contrasting her experience w lily’s…also had fun writing horny marlene lmao

5. nothing fades like the light

jegulus 1890s cowboy au this had 2 make the list i had so much fun writing it lmao. bit out of left field considering most of what i write is canon-compliant or canon-adjacent but this fic was kinda just me having fun!! wanted 2 write a historical au set in the western u.s. wanted 2 throw in religious cults also wanted 2 throw in zombies…et voila…

But yeah,, than i read 'thtf' becoz i was craving some lesbian fics (coz the marauders' fandom is in a lesbian drought let's be real). And it was so good and i absolutely bawled my eyes out. You're writing i think especially shined in this fic and i remember i would go back an reread pages because they we're so beautifully written lol.

And then i read ur cowboy and zombie au fics (even tho I don't really ship jegulus/marylily) but they were still amazing and so, so fun!!

My favourite fic of yours by far tho is ur most recent fic, 'As the Worm Moon Dies'. I'm a sucker for fics that expand on the world-building/magic of hp because i feel like there is so much missed potential in the og hp series due to jkr neoliberal centrist politics (gag). I loved how u depicted magic in series as more of a spectrum and how every human has the capability for it. I loved how u described the elves and their enslavement becoz holy shit is that a horrible plot point in the og series (dw!! they liked being enslaved!!). Sirius as a death eater is so weird becoz canon sirius would never -- but it also shows just how much of an influence James and subsequently the Potter's had on his life. Ooooh also don't even get me started on the werewolf fighting rings and the hypocrisy of pureblood societies its absolutely so fascinating to me!! Ahh i've reread it so many times already lol. (and obviously, the wolfstar is *chefs kiss*)

I love ur writing so much i actually started reading the captive prince series solely so ic ould read ur fanfics on it lmao. (up to book 2 -- so far very interesting -- and wondering what Laurent's perspective could possibly contain).

Honourable mentions to ur nobleflower and emmary fics because they were awesome and ur characterisation of emmaline as a butch aloof lesbian is now absolutely cannon to me!!

Anyways sorry for rambling so much i just needed to fangirl about ur works!! I just wanted to thank you for all the time you put into them and your services to the marauders fandom. Oh, and if you ever published a book one day i would read it no doubt.

ty 4 the tags @mayzarbewithyou @ad-astra-per-aspera7 !!

rules: share the first lines of ten of your most recent fanfics and tag ten people. if you have written less than ten, don’t be shy and share anyway.

1. nothing fades like the light

He always thought he would die with blood in his mouth. His own, or someone else’s—either way, when he imagined it, the tang of iron was always there. Strange, now, to taste nothing but dust on his tongue.

2. this rotten work [wip]

Lily Evans doesn’t walk away.

It’s not who she is—it’s never been who she is. When she commits to something, she commits; she sees it through until the bitter, bloody end. Her mum calls it tenacious. Remus calls it self-destructive. Severus called it a lot of things, and Lily tries not to think about any of them. She tries not to think about Severus at all—though she still has nightmares, sometimes.

3. alice, look at me

Narcissa Black is born fighting. She’s born screaming, kicking her feet and waving her fists. She leaves her mother in a puddle of blood and fleshy afterbirth, split open and scraped raw, all the soft, dark meat of life turned inside out. The midwives wipe the viscera from her face, and Narcissa wails.

4. the hand that feeds

The lights are off when she gets home. Which—fuck, okay, yes, that makes sense, because it’s the middle of the night (morning? She’s not sure what time it is—lost track somewhere between the fifth and sixth shots of vodka pressed into her hands). But it means she can’t see the bloody floor, and she trips trying to get her bloody heels off, because if she tries to walk through the kitchen with them on she’ll give herself away on the bloody linoleum. And then it doesn’t even matter, because she’s all knees and elbows on the floor, and the light flicks on in the hallway.

5. the heart that bleeds

Emmeline Vance is not a pretty girl.

This is the first sin.

6. aftermath

Lily stares down at the vial in her hands. It’s such a little thing, small enough to fit in her palm. In the shadows of the dark living room, the liquid inside looks black.

7. all the young dudes - sirius's perspective

Sirius Black was awake. He doubted that he would ever sleep again. His entire body was alive with energy, buzzing, as if he could feel the magic fizzing in his veins. 

8. another perspective

You can’t play a pawn like a king.

9. untitled (pandalily timewar au) [unposted wip]

It is the first century, though nobody here knows that. It will not be the first century for centuries to come, not in mouths, anyway, and not on tongues, and certainly not on paper. But she’s getting ahead of herself. Paper hasn’t been invented quite yet.

10. untitled (werewolf fighting ring au) [unposted wip]

The moon’s rising. Sirius watches it through the trees, pale fingers of splintering light, shadows that dance with the leaves. The wind bites at his hair, his cheeks. His wand jabs into his hip, tucked tight into the pocket of his muggle jeans.

He tilts his head back. Sighs.  

He is so fucking bored.

idk if i can tag 10 people who haven't already done this/been tagged but i will do my best (if you've already been tagged/done it/don't want 2 do it then just disregard <3):

hi you <3 picking the exact question i was hoping that someone would ask...on my knees w a ring etc

11. If you had to give an album to each of your fics which album would you choose?

as the worm moon dies - um...i do not want 2 say the smiths but i fear it may be the smiths by the smiths...maybe not tho maybe...i can make the argument for i'm your man by leonard cohen...

hope he never lets me down (again) - well this one is easy. music for the masses by depeche mode <3

nothing fades like the light - also easy lol pony by orville peck

this rotten work - have not written enough of this one 2 make a firm decision...maybe fantasies by metric

aftermath - hmmm haven't reread this one in a while so i don't have a super clear vibe in mind...maybe burst apart by the antlers.

the heart that bleeds - lush by mitski

the hand that feeds - wild is the wind by nina simone...or fleetwood mac by fleetwood mac

alice, look at me - this one is hard bc the song it's titled after is a single so i cannot simply choose its album...i suppose maybe home video by lucy dacus...or maybe magdalene by fka twigs

atydsp + another perspective - doing these 2 together. feels obvious maybe but the rise and fall of ziggy stardust and the spiders from mars by david bowie

And even if you don’t, I still wanted to thank you for your service haha you’re an amazing writer