#theo rambles

Staticapple and Adamsapple where he clearly tops vox and Adam

And

Lucililith in which he clearly bottoms for Lilith

i love niles. so fucking much. i will do anything for him.

loving the dialogue, spot on as per usual obsidian.

combat is nicer than it was in the first game, though i don't enjoy melee so i will stick to guns when i have ammo for them lol

skill system is decent

i like the title screen bits. moon man commenting on what you do in the game etc is a nice detail.

not sure if it's just my ps5 but some textures seem to be missing. things will look weirdly smooth surrounded by the grungey texture of other things. also when there's a breeze in grasses and flowers they stutter at first before doing the animation. all i can hope for is that this is something that fine tuning some settings can fix, because if i'm gonna be spending a lot of time in this game it's going to bother me. superficial, i know, but the inconsistency bothers me.

Okay so like objectively I know I’m a decent human being and that others generally like me. However, since being in college it feels more hit or miss with particular groups of people. Like in my college classes I usually find one or two people who enjoy my presence and I’m generally pretty fine with that arrangement.

At the beginning of my first semester I had one really small class and what felt like the entire class didn’t like me. How did I know this? It was pretty obvious from the blatant glares and the way my peers intentionally ignored or straight up excluded me from things.At the time I just took it as “oh well I’m just too blatantly queer looking so maybe they’re just put off by me” because you know, homophobia still exists.

However, it’s come to my attention recently that yet another particular person doesn’t like me. That’s all fine within itself, however it bothers me because it is someone I intentionally put a lot of time and effort into trying to befriend.

I know that stuff happens and that friends(or just people in general) are hit or miss when it comes to liking others and stuff. However, I thought that it was just the way they acted. Like I just assumed they were naturally standoffish, cold, and defensive to everyone. Obviously I was wrong and I was recently informed that they told others that they didn’t like me multiple times and to keep it a secret from me because they “didn’t have a particular reason, they just didn’t like me”.

I understand not liking a person for no reason, I get that that happens. (Also, truly I don’t blame them nor am I mad at them for not liking me). It just feels super demeaning for me to be kept away from knowing for almost an entire year of knowing this person and trying to befriend them any chance I could.

I’ve spent a lot of my life worrying about what others think of me and stressing over every possible thought a person could have while perceiving me. To this day I still haven’t reached an actual conclusion to the reason why both this person, and some of my fellow classmates don’t like me. I try so hard to impress others (maybe that’s the problem) or maybe it’s something very obvious I do that everyone sees but me and everyone except a select group of people just ignore it and find me endearing instead.

anyway have a tiny trustbites doddle.