#themamabair

Hey! I’m still figuring out stuff on here after a long hiatus, but I figured I’d introduce myself.

I’m Hannah, I’m 28 and I live in Vermont with my husband and our son, Bair. Bair is 15 months and the sweetest baby boy. My husband is a USMC veteran who now serves veterans in higher education. I am a Waldorf Spanish teacher and absolutely love my job and my community.

I love immersing myself and my family in nature, being a mom, cooking (and restaurants, food in general), and working on self-improvement, even when it gets uncomfy, which it often does! I am an aspiring homemaker, which is another reason I love my job as it gives me the ability and the guidance to take care of my home and my family within the context of a greater, loving community.

I intend to use this platform as a journal, feel free to follow along if you wish. I love making new friends and interacting with people, especially other parents. Join me if you want to learn more about Waldorf education, nature/play based learning, wild parenting, and more! I am still on this journey myself, and I’m always learning too.

Lunch prep for the next three days.

I quit cannabis a week ago. I’ve been a daily smoker for ten years. It’s not been as hard as I thought in terms of cravings, but the habit of using it as a way to relax, to escape - that’s been hard. Emotionally it’s been a bit of a roller coaster. I feel disregulated and off, but I also feel like I’m coming back to who I truly am, who I was before I started smoking. It’s nice to know that I’m still me underneath all the haze.

At the same time, Dave has quit alcohol to try and be healthier as well. He is feeling the same as me, just a bit off and sad at the change in habit. We both know our quitting is for the best, and the first two weeks will be the hardest, and I am hopeful and mostly confident we can make it through.

I called in sick to work until Thursday. I can’t smell or taste and I’m coughing a bunch. Bair is coughing too but seems to be okay otherwise. Toddlerhood is really hard, both for the kid and for the parents. The constant whining and screeching is really starting to wear me down, and I dropped him off with my father-in-law for a couple hours today just so I could get a break. And I got a bunch of things done, so that was really nice.

We’re not doing anything for Valentine’s Day tomorrow. Last weekend we dropped Bair off at my dad’s and stayed at the nicest hotel in our city, and went to a very lovely dinner at the fancy French bistro in town. It was very connecting and we had a wonderful time. I don’t feel sad that we aren’t celebrating Valentine’s Day proper, but I did get him a card from me and Bair just because I love giving cards.