#thelid

I never wanted to leave you. I wanted to fight for you, but you didn’t want me fighting for you. While I was fighting for you, for us, you saw it as pushing you towards feeling a certain way. Yesterday was the worst day I had. I drank and drank and drank till I couldn’t remember anymore, but no matter how many bottles I finish I won’t be able to forget you. Meanwhile you will find someone who will make you completely forget about me. But I’ll sadly still be waiting here, waiting to get another hug from you. Waiting to hear you say you miss me as well. Maybe by then I will forget you, but that is highly unlikely.

I met her around this time 2 years ago, she left 5 months ago. It still hurts every day when I reminisce over stupid little memories that make me smile but then that smile turns into tears. I try to shut them out but they keep coming back more and more. I go to text you and say hey remember this but only then do I remember my text will never send. What kind of person cares about someone but then blocks their number. It’s almost like you are trying to block out the memory of them but you and I both know we had a love that no body could understand. I still sit here and wait, I wait because I know the wait will be worth it. Maybe we will both come back as better people.