#tgna

Hi guys! For those of you still waiting for news on TGNA, I'd love to hear your thoughts on something

I started TGNA years ago as a low bar pet project to get back into writing. The idea began between me and some friends, as a Trials of Apollo fanficiton, but spiraled from there. I've never had an end goal with it, but thought of it as a sitcom that keeps growing on it's own.

Because of that approach, I've written myself into some corners, and I have a hard time planning a way out. There are also worldbuilding elements I would have done different if I'd written it today.

Thanks to years of throwing ideas around with @aimeemaroux over the years, I feel like my grasp of the characters have improved a lot. These past months of re-editing Operation Braincell with Faith's help, has also helped me become aware of some patterns in my writing I'd rather try to avoid if I can. I've also become much more used to researching other cultures I'm less familiar with, than I was when I started this project.

Which is why, I'm considering re-writing TGNA from scratch. My main goal would be to place the story in Greece from the beginning. It means side-characters would be re-named and altered. I'd be able to remove the gods ability to teleport and make them less OP (an ability I needed for them to be able to cover more ground in short amount of time.)

It would be a big new project, and I'd reshape chuncks of the story. But I think it would make a better fic in the end.

Hey TGNA,

Firstly, I want to say I am very sorry for your loss. Loss of a loved one is a very hard thing. I know that you're feeling a lot of guilt, and this is a part of the process of grief. We have a page here that details the process of Grief, and you have likely already felt a few of them. But I want you to know that whilst the things you are feeling are very real and very valid, you are not a bad person. It is not a nice thought to know you lost someone when you were on bad terms, but know that you've had many good times and good memories together. Your dad would know that. You know that too. Even if you didn't say you loved him for a long time, I can hear in this message that you've sent us that you did love him. And because I can get that from a message, I know that your dad was aware that you loved him.

It must be very hard to see your mum also going through this pain. Is there another family member that you can call on for support? It may help all three of you to have some additional support to get through this time. There are Grief Phone Counsellors and Web Counsellors, that I would strongly passing on to her. They are trained to support people going through this.

But please remember that you are grieving too, and you need to focus on yourself during this time as well. There are those helplines above, and suggestions for coping for grief on the first link that I gave. It can really help to talk about the good things that you experienced with your dad. Even if it just means writing them down in a journal. Remember to do things that make you feel good, whether it be sitting in the sun for 15 minutes, having a bath or doing art. The most important thing is to not hold it in and isolate yourself. There are plenty of supports around to help you get through this, especially when you feel this burden. We also have a page of Distractions here, some of which you can turn into positives for your dad (for example, making an art piece for him). Our admin Pauline also did a Video on Grief here, which talks about ways to cope.

It is so hard to break out of the "what-if" mode, and away from the guilt and blame. Things cannot be changed, no matter how much we want to change them. So remember all the good times and know that there was love there.