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So I don't think I've posted much in a while, and that's because I've spent the past month and a bit settling into uni *excited dancing*

On the day I moved in I'd only been back from Namibia for three days so honestly it wasn't as daunting a prospect as I thought it'd be simply because I'd been away on the other side of the world for two weeks anyway and loved my time there. However, half way through the day I was beginning to feel a bit nervous so asked my family to leave me so that I wouldn't be tempted to just leave myself. My best bit of advice would be make that break and go and talk to your flatmates as soon as nerves start settling in because you'll soon be distracted by getting to know each other :)

Freshers was hard for me, as someone who doesn't drink and never goes clubbing, but I sucked it up so that I could get to know my flatmates. For me they're okay, I guess, but I'm not a great fan. Luckily I followed through with my plan to join loads of societies and I love everyone in them and sit with an awesome bunch of people in my lectures. My advice to anyone who doesn't drink is to go to societies; you'll definitely meet like minded people there, don't just stick with your flatmates as the only people you've tried to get to know a month into uni.

If you're a student that DOESN'T go out drinking all the time. 

a quick post cause i cant be bothered and wanna go bed.

I had a really nice weekend.  An old friend came over for dinner today, he'd been away last year and today was our first proper catch up since and it was really, really nice.  My social life this year is pretty good I reckon.  I wanted to join this society thing but couldnt do it 'cause it took up too much time, and I keep seeing pictures of all the fun they're having and they're bonding and shit.  Its kinda annoying and I feel a bit of a twinge, but you can't have it all and meet everyone.  What Ive got is damn good and meaningful.  I'd say this is one of the best times for me socially, I have friends that like me for me and I can be natural around, and who accept and care about me very much.  Perhaps even one of the best times.

I also had a date yesterday.  I'm not sure how it went but I haven't been on very many so it was good practice and made me feel like I guess I was maturing and passing a bit of a milestone and getting out there.  I'm a bit frustrated at the minute because I've been single for what feels like quite long, but well I saw this tumblr gif a few days ago.  It was saying something like (and I might have reblogged or liked it) all the days looking up shit on the internet and writing stuff down and doing shitty jobs you don't really like, one day it'll all add up and count for something.  Well, I'm thinking that all the effort I've put in over the past 2 years to overcome my problems and be a more independent and healthy person, hopefully it'll all come together and one of the things I'll end up getting is a nice, healthy long-term relationship.

But everything is nice at the minute.  I love being in our living room and there's loads of people there because people have round mates or partners, and there's people cooking in the kitchen or outside having a cigarette.  It's nice having people around.

This alcohol detox thing is an ass though and in honesty, I'm finding it sorta difficult even though it hasn't been that long since I binge drunk.  I think it's good and I'm hoping to keep it up, but I'm very conscious of how sober I've been.  It's not like I haven't gone this long before without being drunk at all, or even that I've had much opportunity to got out, it's just that knowing I'm limiting myself means I'm more aware of the fact I'm haven't been drinking.  And noticing it makes me want it more.  It's good though, I feel as though I'm facing up to myself and forcing myself to be myself more around people which I think will help my remaining SA and confidence.