#systems stuff

i have a problem. im a very busy and low-energy person. also - i might have ADHD, so it's hard for me to focus.. that's why 3 of my attempts to make or develop a tulpa ended in nothing, because I've hit a new chapter of my life and could not use my energy on something that isn't work/education/basic daily tasks.

but I'm thinking about starting again. do you maybe have some ideas on how to stay focused and stuff? anything at all would help me greatly

also - when i direct my mindspeaking towards a tulpa, i feel a little bit of tension in one part of my head. I've come to associate it with "i direct my voice in the correct way, and my tulpa is listening". do you have anything similar, or have you heard of this anywhere?

Hi there! I actually think that's a common experience. It sounds like the headpressure a lot of tulpamancers describe in the process.

We're advanced enough in communication that I don't think that happens, exactly, but there usually is a feeling of a presence when a headmate is listening in. It's difficult to describe what it feels like exactly though.

Anyway, it does sound like you're on the right track!

if you wanna go by another name? sure thats probably the best thing but come off it buddy.

I don't think I've ever seen a solid source suggesting the practice tulpamancy is based on is actually closed.

When the question was asked in r/Buddhism a while back, at most people were saying it might be dangerous to people without training, but didn't seem to feel it was culturally offensive to do so.

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Tulpa systems are endogenic systems!

As for staying in "my little corner of the internet"... you know... I don't think I will. 🤪 I'd much rather branch out. To everywhere. I'll be talking about plurality in disability spaces. (Specifically ASD a lot since we're autistic.) LGBT spaces. Even fandom spaces. Maybe especially fandom spaces

I plan to be omnipresent.

If you want to keep DID and OSDD spaces? You can have them. Well, at least, I won't touch them much personally. There are a lot of mixed origin systems out there with DID and OSDD who are just as entitled to those communities as you are.

I don't really know much about it. It's a new diagnosis in the ICD-11 that came out in 2019 that's basically DID but with little or no switching.

You can find the full diagnostic criteria here:

Additionally there is literally a type of alter or function in DID systems that exists... specifically to act as a memory bank. This is common in polyfragmented DID systems and is why they get confused for OSDD very often. Most pf-DID systems we know including ourselves, originally thought they had OSDD and not DID because they remembered very basic stuff. Turns out we personally do not actually remember a lot- we just have factual knowledge like as if we read a bullet point list.

I just wish people better understood things- and didn't try and convince young disordered systems that their healing and ability to function well and be happy within their own being is impossible. We aren't super far in our healing ourself but we have gotten better- and we have gone from 0 communication to easy communication within subsystems after a few months of work to be able to do so. It may take longer for some others- and there could also be more reasons there's a block- but you will be able to get there eventually. As much as it sucks to be at the early stages- you can be happy you can do well.

Thank you for sharing your experiences!

One of the most dangerous things about a lot of the disinformation from r/systemscringe and r/fakedisordercringe is just how deeply anti-recovery they are.

Fakeclaiming is always bad but these cringe subreddits go even worse by tying aspects of recovery to their fakeclaiming. Communication is integral to lessening dissociative barriers. When those barriers are healed, it makes memories easier to access and share. But denial makes these barriers worse.

Warning, this could be quite distressing, it is about splitting a brain in half and what the new consciousness thinks of its self. It has a breakdown. Very existential crisisy. It's horror about being plural, so be careful

I'm also sorry if I come of as weirdly excited about it (feels like being a fan of true crime, but it is fictional), it connects to me and my pluralhood