#system reset

[Plain text: Just grieve them.]

Disclaimer: No experience is universal. Your(&) mileage may vary.

Warning: discussion of in-system death, dormancy, system resets, egocide/suicide, fusion, and similar losses. mention of medical/psychiatric abuse, pluralphobia / pluralmisia. mention of spirituality and religion.

[Plain text: Disclaimer: No experience is universal. Your(&) mileage may vary.

Warning: discussion of in-system death, dormancy, system resets, egocide/suicide, fusion, and similar losses. mention of medical/psychiatric abuse, pluralphobia / pluralmisia. mention of spirituality and religion. End plain text.]

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Whether or not you(&) believe headmates can die, whether or not they'll return (and it's very uncertain in many cases), you(&) are allowed to grieve those your collective have lost.

You(&) are allowed to see dormancy, resets, ego deaths, in-system egocide/suicide, walk-outs, or fusion as true death. Or see them as just a temporary loss. You(&) don't need our permission, really, but if you need to hear it: you're(&) allowed to hold funerals or other memorial services for them either way.

If you're(&) religious/spiritual, you're allowed to do what rituals can bring you(&) peace. Shiva, libations, prayers, spells, whatever you need, however long it takes. In-system, out-system, or both is perfectly okay. Grief is grief.

You are allowed to make vent art. Write fic if they're sourced (fiction or fact alike). Write a song. Make a plushie of them. Make moodboards or scrapbooks to remember them. Or express your feelings however you like.

Whether the cause is a traumatic outer-world life event, forced fusion via medical/psychiatric abuse, an intra- or exo- event (meaning in-system or in other worlds, for walk-ins, soulbonds, etc.), or even a random occurrence, you're still allowed to treat it as you see fit. Including treating it as death.

You(&) do not deserve judgment if you(&) experience negative effects from the loss of (a) systemmate(s). Example: depressed, lose concentration, have mood swings, miss appointments, can't work or go to school, struggle to eat and shower, have physical pain, get fired, drop out, etc..

You(&) don't have to have proof that people, parts, etc. in your systems are Permanently Missing (finding proof isn't possible a lot of the time, anyway). You(&) can still make an in-system support group for those who are bereaved, or visit a physical/online support group to help everyone. And no, you(&) don't have to tell the physical/online support group that it's an in-system event. Please stay safe and protect your(&) privacy.

Yes, even if they can be revived. Even if you're(&) able to drag disappearing brain-roommates from a mental/metaphysical/etc. afterlife, or rebuild them like in science fiction, you're(&) still allowed to be sad, angry, etc. about the pain this event has brought you(&).

Your(&) trauma from in-system losses is valid. Even if other people deny it. Including the psychiatric system or your(&) own psychiatrists. You(&) deserve to acknowledge this trauma.

You(&) don't have to fully be sure of the technicalities. You don't have to justify it to other people. Not even your(&) partners and/or therapists if you(&) have either/both. No one should dictate how you(&) work through grief except you(&). Everyone copes differently. There is no "right" or "wrong" way to live through this.

Letting yourselves go through the process of grieving - letting yourselves feel instead of denying those emotions - may very well help you(&).

Take care of yourselves, if you(&) can. But if you(&) struggle, that's okay. Grief isn't easy. Don't rush. You're(&) not a lesser person for not being able to cope "perfectly". There is no right way to grieve, and no timeline or milestones you(&) must achieve.

Entire systems don’t just disappear.

A “system reset" as this would be called is not a recognized clinical term or phenomenon in psychiatry. Clinical research and authoritative health organizations such as the Cleveland Clinic Dissociative Identity Disorder Guide state that existing alters cannot die, disappear, or be wiped out to start from "square one".

Your experience may have made me/us realize that we might've had iterations of our own plurality in the past.

Something about describing it as "iterations" clicks with us. The multifictives, personatives and OCtives stayed through a few iterations.

If you got no other plural connecting with your experience, you at least have one plural here who does.

We’ve been back at our house, ya know, the place we’ve been abused, for a month.

And in this month our host has split five (maybe six) times and is no longer host, and we’ve experienced a mild system reset.

But this system reset is so new, that we don’t even know who anyone is just that a lot of people have been dormancied.

Additionally, some of our headmates haven’t been masking well enough that our family has noticed and asked if we are okay.

We’re not doing well, but have to live here for another month.

We’ve been conditioned to believe that weight loss is a constant war against our own willpower. We accept the "hangry" mood swings, the late-night refrigerator raids, and the sluggish energy crashes as the mandatory price of transformation.

But "willpower" is an exhausted resource. 📉🚫

The constant urge to snack and the "unbearable" cravings are often just signals that your Glucose Symmetry is offline. To break the cycle, you don't need to fight your body; you need a Metabolic Reset. You need to provide your system with the botanical data required to stop storing new fat and start utilizing your existing energy reserves with precision.