Never again __LepaciousBose declares ... I heard Thursdays are for throw backs so I went way back to look for a woman I used to know..... The thing is I remember her pain, her tears, her frustrations, her insecurities, her rejections, body shaming from even so called friends the suicidal attempts and much more. Oh I remember the feeling of being stuck in a body bag in a long dark hole and unable to find a way out, till today I still feel claustrophobic and avoid very crowded places. . That woman was her heaviest at 210kg (still don’t know how I got there), then at my smallest I lost weight to 95kg and I thought yesssssss I can relax now..... that was my biggest mistake! I woke up one day and I was 135kg, I could feel the walls closing on me again, the depression engulfing me, the mental battle pulling me into that deep dark tunnel. It was time to fight back again. Not sure I can ever be 95kg again because after 40 Weightloss is a daunting task. Today at 108kg I live a routine life, workout often and it’s not because am strong or am disciplined etc.... it’s because I can’t afford to go back to that dark place. Am afraid I may not be able to find my way out the 3rd time. So I press on.... because it is a matter of life and death; that’s why it’s throw back because the only time I will ever see that woman again must be in throw back pictures, NEVER AGAIN IN A MIRROR!!!!! . . . .Repost @lepaciousbose (with @report.for.insta #winning #takingmylifeback #weightloss #weightlossjourney #survivingthyroids #thyroidwarrior #fightingback #beatingdepression #overcomingemotionaleating #stayingalive #fatslayer #toolegittoquit #stilltoolegittoquit #lepaciousbose #gratefulheart #hypothyroidism #hypothyroidismweightloss #hypothyroid #pcosweightloss #workout #fitness #bodygoals #remolding #gym #excercise #gymlife #healthylifestyle #healthyeating #cleaneating #thestonethebuildersrejected #lepaciousbose https://www.instagram.com/p/B23-jqnJNIM/?igshid=zzp9dr8r4sew
