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I do feel they both care and love each other, but I do sense that Beenzino at this time loves Stefanie more. Sometimes his love for her can be too overbearing and possessive. Beenzino gets easily jealous, despite his "cool" or nonchalant attitude. He's actually quite sensitive towards others' feelings and can sometimes read too much into things. He tries to act like he's totally all right with Stefanie hanging out with certain people or just doing her own things, but in reality, he isn't. I do see him trying to give her space and distance because Stefanie values her freedom and independence a lot.

The way he wants to receive love versus the way she gives love/care is very different. Stefanie is very much the sort that is more nonchalant and in some ways ignorant of others' feelings. She can often say things without thinking and come off as rather ignorant or rather offensive. She thinks she's just being truthful though. She also isn't really the sort to be always clinging by Beenzino. She doesn't need that much constant attention from a partner. She doesn't see love as everything in her life and certainly doesn't want to always be known as Beenzino's wife.

I do feel that she feels a bit caged in this marriage. Career wise I sense she feels a bit stunted because a lot of times people are just curious about her and Beenzino and their relationship, not really are interested in what she really has to offer. She doesn't want to have to rely on her marriage as the highlight of her career, yet she knows that that would likely give her some success. I do feel like over time Beenzino seems to be more and more possessive, jealous, and controlling. I think some parts of it comes down to insecurity and some of it is because like I said Beenzino isn't getting the type of love he wants. Beenzino is the clingy type and requires a ton of attention and showering of love through affection or praise. While Stefanie is affectionate physically, she's not really the type to constantly praise nor is she type to cling onto her spouse. She needs much less umm time spent together than him.

Also during the period where the two had to be away from each other (I think bc he was in military?), Beenzino got more anxious and scared of losing her. I think he felt like she would cheat on him or dump him because she couldn't wait for him. Beenzino also had some picked up some signals/messages from her or from mutual friends about Stefanie that made him feel that she was moving on from him.

I do see that they have some chances of divorcing later on if Beenzino keeps being insecure and keeps being possessive/controlling. His need to control her will likely become greater over the years. If he restricts who Stefanie sees/hangs out with, then Stefanie will be very upset and bothered. I also do see that there are some cultural differences between them that are kind of hard to resolve and some family matters like differences in thinking/ways of doing things. I don't get the sense that Beenzino's family is very fond of Stefanie; they find her ok but they feel like he could do better and is suited for someone else. Stefanie's a bit too wild in their eyes.

Hello!! I can finally post my pieces for the 19 zine project!

‪this is 1 of 2 pieces for the sketchbook zine which based on the song “19” written by jisung ‬

‪it has been a pleasure working with the 19ZINEPROJECT team and i’m so thankful for being able to be a part of it! ‬

Beenzino

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