Stressing out hardcore today, Xmas commercials and knowing it’s coming.... I was just taken off work until my therapy kicks in and my recovery is showing some changes. Until then I’m not equipped to work. But there’s the stress I’m not working, Xmas is coming and I’m not sure how I’ll get things done. And yes I put it all on me, I’m married and yet I feel fully responsible for everything including the worrying. I need to change my thinking in this area I know...... but until than I’m here stressing out thinking maybe I don’t listen and I go find a job and put my therapy on hold again. But than I know if I do that I won’t really ever get on the road to being ok. Ugh...... so much stress!! #thinkingtoomuch #offwork #stressingout #somuchpressure #mentallyill #borderlinepersonality #bpd #boldlybpd #yournotalone #mentalillnesswarrior #mentalhealthwarrior #invisibleillness #tryingtogetbetter #tryingtoadult #mystory #sharingmystory #momlife #takeitallon #mentalillnessblog #bpdblogger #bpdmom #writer