Sex is BORING. Genitalia is GROSS. PIERCE MY SKIN with your TEETH and CONSUME ME UNTIL I AM NOTHING.

Someone grabbing you off the side of the road on your walk home one night, beating the shit out of you and absolutely destroying your body. Beating you to the brink of death and dumping you in some ditch in the middle of fuck-all-nowhere. They tell a bunch of people and now your barely living body is a secret punching bag/cum dump for passerbys to use however they want. Coming in and out of consciousness to the view of strangers fucking you, pissing on you, cutting you up however their hearts desire. Constantly kept too weak to leave but just strong enough to technically be alive. Eventually you’re just a corpse. Cold and covered in mud, still attracting the occasional visitor.

You’re going to starve in here. Locked away, listen to the world move on without you. Cry, whine, bark, scream until you have no voice. The people you love are just outside the door. Cooking, laughing, singing, enjoying their freedom without you. They will not open the door. They may not even remember that you are there. So you will press your body tight against the door and fall in love with your new life in the tower. In love with the door until you starve and melt into it.

Getting better may be a necessity but it doesnt have the same allure as self destruction. I want to be disgusting and miserable. I want someone to take their time making me worse. Pushing me to cvt deeper, hit harder, isolate further, st4rve longer. Surely as a little treat you can come ruin me?

Lets not pretend you’re all good. I’m a sick fuck hell bent on self destruction and you’re a bad person for feeding into it. So hurry up and be a bad person.

Doggy needs a good brick to the head right about now.