I need to eat someone. Not sexually. Not to show affection. To simply eat. Like having a nice hot meal after working all day, simply just food you enjoy. This isn't a new thing for me, I've had the urge since I was a kid. The need. I have always needed to eat another human. The closest I got to that was licking off my friend's blood from his self harm, that definitely made it worse. This isn't a vent post, I am not saddened by the fact I have that urge. This is not a reoccurring intrusive thought. If it was intrusive that would mean I don't want those thoughts, I very much do want to think about eating another being.
Nothing in my childhood occurred that would trigger this reaction, as it started in my childhood, before I knew what a number was. I was never abused by anyone, it's not a safety response. It's just something that started for no reason. No sad story to explain it.