#stop thinking

Davey Jacobs has crippling anxiety but he’s so self aware and does not tell anyone because it Is Embarrassing to be Aware how illogical his anxiety is and Still not be able to shake it

'it’s so frustrating that I want to write all my thoughts and feelings, but I keep it small because I don’t know which words will fully carry my emotions. I'm willing to end everything, but also to live the hell out of life until I can’t breathe from running toward a fulfilled life. can I write one exclusive, long paragraph and hope it will be okay to do so. I'm not afraid of you people who might judge me; I’m afraid of judging myself. judging myself for not being grateful enough while having everything most of you want. I can travel, I have a job, I have a home, coffee whenever I want or need. I have everything everyone asks for, but I'm missing the one thing I have always wanted. love. love I can believe in, love I can feel in every little bone of my body. love that lets me do everything I’m afraid of. love that makes me, me. love. the only thing I ever wanted is the only thing I have never truly felt.

i think bleeding is affecting my emotions maybe