“So it’s my birthday next week”

“I know”

“I was thinking of asking for something from you as a… like… I don’t know. Anyway it might be too much to ask for it’s okay if you don’t want to but…”

“What is it Hollander. I am very rich. You cannot scare me.”

“No no it’s not something you buy I was just thinking it would be nice to turn my brain off for that day. I mean it would be a lot of work so like no pressure to agree or anything.”

“I’m not following”

“Could you like tell me what to do all day? Make it so I don’t have to make any choices? It would just be for my birthday. It’s just that I hate making choices. It would be work. I can’t imagine having to do it for two people. Again you can say no.”

They talk about it more and Ilya is getting harder every second as Shane explains that he wants ilya to have complete and utter control of him. He wants to not get out of bed until Ilya tells him he wants to eat what Ilya has him make and stop when Ilya tells him to. He wants to get fucked when Ilya wants and sit where Ilya tells him to and if Shane’s parents have dinner with the two of them that evening he wants Ilya to tell him what to order and squeeze his hand when he’s supposed to talk and he wants to not think about anything for a second.

It’s his birthday, he deserves a treat.

Would cunts be interested in like a cute little guide on transforming into being a good girl?

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LOWER BODY

Hip Thrusts or Glute Bridges 4 sets × 8–12 reps

Romanian Deadlifts 3–4 sets × 6–10 reps

Bulgarian Split Squats 3 sets × 8 reps each leg

Reverse Lunges 3 sets × 10 reps each leg

Wall Sits 3 sets × 30–60 sec

Step-Ups 3 sets × 8–10 reps each leg

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CORE

Front Plank 3 sets × 30–60 sec

Side Plank 3 sets × 30 sec each side

Dead Bugs 3 sets × 8–10 reps each side

Pallof Press 3 sets × 10 reps each side

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UPPER BODY

Push-Ups 3 sets × 8–12 reps

Bent-Over Rows 3 sets × 10 reps

Band Scapular Retractions 2–3 sets × 15 reps

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MOBILITY

Deep Squat Hold 60 sec

90/90 Hip Rotations 2 minutes

Frog Stretch 60 sec

Everyone has a name, either something chosen for you, or chosen by you. They are the thing that the world knows you by, the shorthand for your entire personhood, the catch all descriptor of who you are. They are wonderful, beautiful, useful things.

So let me take the name you have, and turn it into a lie. Let me take that descriptor, that thing that all the world says is you, that you say is you, and make that saying into falsehood. Let me turn the thing you show people first into a mask.

Let me learn you so fully and so deeply that I can decide the word that means you. Give me so much power over your identity that you let me take the name you hold in your heart and replace it with one that I decide fits better.

Then let me keep it, secret and private, just for us. Let your new name, the one I decided was you, be our secret. Take the old indicator of who you were and wrap it around yourself like armor, protecting the self that I defined for you.

And when we are alone, let me pull that armor from you, take the mask from your face, and call you by your name. Let me speak the word that says I know you, the self that I decided was real, hidden under all the parts I decided weren't.

recently have been thinking about hollanov and their dynamic and the whole Total Power Exchange of it all. as in, shane is giving his sexual power and autonomy to ilya, but ilya isn't giving his sexual power and autonomy to shane. so like. ilya can make as many rules as he wants, make shane do whatever he wants (and shane will like it) but shane can't tell ilya what to do ever (only inside the bounds of their sexual relationship of course he can safeword). ilya can punish shane whether he did something wrong or not, but shane can never punish ilya, no matter how mean or irrational ilya is being.

i've been thinking about ilya proving this to shane. small or grand actions that he takes every once in a while to make sure that shane knows that ilya can do whatever he wants to shane and shane would just have to take it. it's not every day, that would beat the point. it's just, well, whenever he wants. thinking about ilya promising shane orgasms, but changing his mind at the last minute and leaving shane sobbing and desperate. thinking about ilya making shane get up to do various difficult unnecessary tasks for no other reason or use other than ilya wanted him to, then making him undo all his work. thinking about ilya asking shane what he wants (whether it be a sex position or what movie they watch) and then not doing it. thinking about ilya forcing shane to eat a mcdonald's meal while eating one of shane's brown rice, chicken and broccoli meals right in front of him. thinking about him making shane say thank you for forcing him to eat it. thinking about ilya fucking shane in a position he doesn't like, but making him like it. thinking about ilya deciding to come up with a random rule for shane, just so he can punish shane for breaking it because he just looks so pretty when he cries. thinking about shane, confused and angry and so so turned on, trying to reason with ilya and getting punished for talking back.

Ilya personally vetting each dom. Health screening, interviews, video submissions of them with other partners.

Ilya briefing them before hand. Hard limits. Soft limits. Safe words. Things only Ilya can do - not them. They may not speak to Shane but they can speak about him; to Ilya or each other. They may not touch Shane without Ilya's go ahead, the group negotiates a silent signal for this.

The most watertight NDA's ever put to print.

Any refusal and they'll have to answer to me.