Quick PSA for everyone struggling with their mental health and intrusive thoughts. (Sh mentions)
Start journaling. Not only its a healthy coping mechanism, it will help you see your own imporvement and healing. If you have people very close to you and very dear and you trust them very much (this can be anyoney even your therapist, your best friend, your partner, anyone) and you yearn for them to understand you, show them the journal.
But lets not focus on that. It will help you see your own thoughts and healing better. Big writers and poets of the world were able to produce so many poems and novellas, because they wrote out their emotions, for them it was the same as us with music, both are an outlet.
I have been journaling for a few days and my urges to do harm myself or others has greatly decreased, because i found a healthy outlet.
Your journal could be anywhere, your notes in your phone if your hand writing is bad, or an actual notebook (if your school banned phones) if you like writing with pen and paper.
PS: there is no wrong way of journaling
(Please repost this, my goa is to help people struggling, like me.)