#sourcemates issue

Screaming cause my dad is in my system??

I love being an oc alter most days, I do. There's just a tenderness of how the host loved the source so much that they made me to interact with it; and then I formed as an alter! But other days, it's just sadness about missing friends who only exist in your version, and even if you make friends from slightly different versions of your source, they won't know you at all. Like, I just want my husband and friends..

Not sure if this account is still active but we have factives from the most famous band in the world, myself included. I often feel embarrassed because of this but at the same time, we can't help the way we were made. I'd really love to meet other sourcemates.

me: [has multiple boyfriends] // also me: whERre is my boyfriend from timelINNEEEE :sobs: -💎🎮

damn, i miss my crush from my source a whole lot. and we're not allowed to look for canonmates in this system, and it's reasonable because i know it makes dissociation worse which is bad but hhhhh. anyway, my source is obscure so i don't think anyone even *has* a fictive of him, but... i miss him. :( (fictive)

pros of being from an underground source: not really any weird singlets that !! will b nasty !!

I'm not sure I like being an introject. I think I'm an AU factive and my memories are... not great... And when I meet another person with the same source some love to reminisce, and I can't do that without another round of fear and hurt.